Honestly I am still hurting badly. I cried so much the other day. This is the fifth week we've broken up already. His sleepovers are getting so frequent already. I told myself repeatedly, "Shift yout mindset. Divert your thoughts" whenever I feel like crying again. Of all my relationships, I cried so much for this one and moving on is such a very high mountain to climb. He repeatedly said he doesn't want to come back into our relationship in the future because he doesn't want to. I've in meetings all day at work but when I am alone, I feel the sadness and I tend to cry. I pray when I feel bad, I pray when I go to sleep and when I wake up. I dunno what to do anymore.

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I am In a similar situation. Just know that you aren’t alone. Celebrate the little things...you are able to get yourself to the gym and focus on that! You’re taking care of yourself....it feels like the pain will never end, but every single day you get closer to feeling better and being ok on your own. Hang in there

@MissyTeenk :( I have cried over break up s like that. It's so hard. The one guy I cried most about, we were together just over two years. He was smoking pot a lot and it was always a problem between us. On Memorial Day weekend, I thought we would spend that weekend together, plus or kids (blended). He chose to go back home and "party" with his buddies. Well, I was SO SICK of it, I broke up with him, just like that, in my driveway after church. I cried for, it seemed like, weeks. He did not contact me, AT ALL. But, I think that made it easier to heal. Exactly 3 weeks after, he texted me and asked if we could exchange each others keys back in a civil manner. I wrote him a long letter about how hurt I was about the whole thing, but that I had moved on and left it in a box on my porch for him to pick up. He emailed me saying he wanted me back but I told him it was too late. Missy, how are up supposed to heal if he keeps coming back once in a while? That's like reopening the would each time. :( Please don't let him keep doing this to you. Pack the rest of his things up, put it outside and change the locks. He needs to know he can't keep walking all over you. If he wants to talk about getting back together in the future, then ok. But you don't deserve to have to keep letting him come in and out. Hugs!!