Hi. Didn't think I'd be back here so soon, but here I am, once again, in distress.

So I met a girl, an old girlfriend from before my ex. Long story short, she never got over me, has had a really rough life, is really sick and is on the verge of dying. Because of my love of her from before, I decided to go back to her, and fell back in love with her as if it was yesterday.

She broke up with me 15 years ago due to family pressures, and her mother moving her away from me. It hurt me a lot, and took a year or so to get over, before I met my ex. Since being back with her, we reconnected, shared, and overall it has been great. The chemistry is amazing, I haven't felt this happy in what seems forever, and up to last night, all was perfect.

Yesterday, she started to pressure me to talk to my family about her staying overnight at my place. My mother wants nothing to do with this, and doesn't want her over. I told her this, hoping to strafe off the situation, but she decided to contact my mother and that upset her. Long story short, I tried to mend that fence, and fix it, when she went and posted something on FB about how my mom won't give her a chance and how she is making our lives hell, when in fact she isn't.

So we got into a big fight over this, because it seems like she is trying to pull me away from my family, and that is exactly what I ex did, and I don't want that. Since then, it has been a massive fight, we have broken up, gotten back together, broken up, back together, and now broken up once again.

I'm lost. If we stay broken up, she is going to die. She is going to kill herself, whether through actual suicide, or by giving up the will to fight, and letting the plethora of disorders she has take her. She holds this over my head, and it makes me feel extremely guilty. I have no idea how to handle this.

She has given me this strange power, that when I'm around everything for her is better. Her heart does better, her BP is better, no seizures, she sometimes can stand even though she is paralyzed in her lower legs. When I'm not there, she is sadder, seems depressed, almost like withdrawal. I've been going over everyday, for 10+ hours a day, just to comfort her, and try to make her feel loved, and to help her feel better, but it isn't enough.

She is talking about finding a place for us to live, she wants me to help raise 2 out of the 3 kids she has, she wants me all to herself. If you know me, you know I'm sick with my own stuff, with MG and all, and I don't see how I can raise kids. Also, due to being sick, I'm on disability, and let me tell you, trying to find assistance for housing in NJ is like trying to find a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. It doesn't exist.

So we are at the point where I can't do what she wants, she is upset at me for this, and feels I don't have my head on straight and needs time to think about if I love her or not enough. We fought for 2 hours again tonight, over the phone, to where my MG is so bad that I can barely walk. I've been typing this for over an hour, in which this normally takes 10 minutes. She is really screwing me up inside and out, and I can't handle it. But I also can't handle this guilt and control and manipulation she is pulling on me with the "death card".

So what am I supposed to do in this? Is there anyway that isn't going to completely devastate me? Did I make a seriously stupid move and now need to live with the consequences? If you were me, would you have done any of this? And if you did, how would you handle all this pressure and demand?

I'm sorry that this is so long, but I have to get out. And I'm sorry for needing help again, but I'm a complete wreak right now, and I trust you guys a lot. So thank you from the bottom of my heart, for trying to help me. I feel trapped and screwed. I feel helpless, so very helpless.