I totally understand... people do not understand and you are not doing it intentionally, thats what happens when you are brain injured... your brain controls everything.. and what you are explaining are sections of the parts that got injured. It's the new you... If you haven't been referred yet, you may want to ask your Dr. for a speech therapy referral - it's not what you think, speech helps with memory deficits and not necessarily on how you talk.
You may also want to join the stroke community, we have a lot of the same issues as the brain injured category.

my sence of humor is gone i take everything very seriously...i feel like everyone is dissrespecting me...

I have fallen into deep clinical depression and have lost all interst in thing I used to love doing. My anger is uncontrolable not and I find nothing funny. Anytime some gets mad, I feel as though it is my fault. So yes, my mentality has done a 180.

I can also totally relate. I have a degree in history and political science and I no longer am interested in them. I am not interested in anything any more. I used to ride motorcylcles and now you can not get me to leave the house for anything. I do not know who I am any more either. I am told it is normal and that you do need to develop a new you but I also do not know how.

petitep said exactly what I was going to. Yes there are small changes and sometimes large personality changes. A good Neuro-Psych Doctor and Speech therapy is a must. It is unbeleivable what I have been able to get back.

same as all above i too have lost friends cant comunicate like i did before my injury , My anger makes me snap at almost anyone speacially males.
i cant tollerate stress and still dont have the thought process to not let fools get me down.
i have almost no interest in the things i used to have interest in.
The closer i get to the old me the more frustrated i get, its so hard to get used to any losses to have the same thing i thought Id never regain come back, it starts the whole ball rolling again and re learning all about whatever part is better / worese /lost for ever,ect.
Yes we are all bound to change I think. how much and in what parts are all made up of what we are ,who we are ,and the people in our lives ,the ones that dropp off, the ones that try to help. the idiots.The good and the bad.
i explain or at least try too buy calling my TBI a rolling ball that is forever changing soon as i think the shape is write ,boom ,off goes the ball rolling again, i try to take parts of the ball as i can ,some times it dropps sometimes it sticks to my new ball?
that probly sounds strange and hard to picture.
like wise it makes it so hard to talk about as well.
I try to get back to my old self on an all day every day basis and it is working. that dont make it easyer at all, but i will continue to heal and get closer i wont give in to this TBI and any so called friends lost and in that any things i cant get back will be replaced by another.
s for the things i used to like I still want them all , I have just lost the drive ist still taken up by all of the above.so
The more i get closer to my old self the more i will want them, the more time i will have to make that a goal.the old you Is there it will take time to find and expect changes as i do.
I hope this has helped you in some way.
And nothing will make the change easyer.
Daz

Thanx for your alls input on brain injury and personality change It was really insightful I need to do my neuro pycsh testing like my neurologist suggests and ask about a speech therapist I also used to be the perfect speller of words won spelling bees all thru school now I cant spell very good at all I also have alot of anger I never had b4 If anyone else has anymore insight or suggestions Id greatly appreciate it good luck to all of you love and peace jane

Hey, I don't know if my whole personality changed;(unfortunatly, I do have to rely on others for that) but some of it did. My morals are still the same (so 'they' say so) but part of my memory about one person is gone. I had a TBI and I didn't come to the realization that anything change about me until four months after. I do count my blessings, but I do know (somehow) that I've changed. I hope this helps a little, hugs to you. kim

Wow, I could totally relate to everything everyone has written to this post. Yhis is something I have been struggling with for years. I have found that over time I have sort of become the person I am now, but I also feel like there are a lot of holes in my self, my personality. I am really hopeful that with some help and therapy I can find some contentment with the life I am leading today.

i totally understand. i had brain injuries as a kid and then again over ten years ago. i'm not exactly as i was. what you do is adjust to the new you and people can take it or leave it. besides, people do change as they get older anyway and maybe the medical things our bodies go through IS a lot of the reason for the changes. it would make sense. we only have what we have to work with.

I still wonder how much of my son's father's personality will be back. You still see glimpses of him, but not a lot. I think because he is so confused still. I know he talks NOTHING like he used to. Like the words he uses to describes things.
I just look forward to making new memories with him and getting to know each other again.

My husband has the same thing. He use to be the most mellow person and now the slitest little thing sets him off. He gets so frustrated. He also has times when he has a really bad moment (dizzy,double vision, small headache, balance problem)this bad moment doesnt last very long but after one of these spells he gets really goofy almost like a little 3 year old kid.

I absolutely agree and understand the symptoms you describe. I'm a musician and was a top-dog computer programmer specifically because of my creativity. Its still there but I can't tap into it. I have a real hard time learning new songs and used to write more.

I have a great deal of perspective on this becuase I've had an unusual but powerful treatment that removed an entire layer of that confusion and that improved my cognitive abilties, almost overnight - allowing me better understanding of the remaining symptoms. I can even write programs now, but can't design screens and such to the level that used to be easy for me.

I even have a hard time feeling 'JOYFUL' though it's like having a word on the tip of your tongue, I can almost feel it and do feel the frustration of not being able to get all the way there. I also have trouble with Planing and execution that stifles so much of what I want to do. Maing even simple plans and carrying them out. It also feels like a physical blockage. Collectively they refer to that as 'executive function' at the website www.braininjury.com. I am excited, actually, to be learning so much about TBI from certain websites and sharing your experiences here. I had no idea that this was going on for the past 12-14 years, but it makes so much sense to me now that some of symptoms have been signifantl reduced. Peace

Thank you for talking about this, Janie. Yes, me too I can totally relate to what all of you described as changes in your perception of the world in general.

Well, me too I had changes which were not physical, but yes, psychological and spiritual. Me too have changes in my sense of humour and general enthusiasm - used to be very fresh and enthusiastic - and mainly in my paranormal senses - used to have a parabolic anthena and now feel like Mr. Magoo moving around.

From what I read and studyied about this issue, I learned that any vascular accident in the brains, no matter what caused it - external (car crash) or internal (blocked veins)causes, it is deeply related to profound sadness in the patient, who somehow opens the door to it.

It will forcefully change the sense of humour and general perception of fun. So the tendency is to laugh less and be somehow prone to a depressive crisis due to the perception of the losses we had.

I'd suggest you investigated what led you to that situation and with a heart as loving as possible, look at that picture and at its present consequences and accept them the way they are. Then, with a loving heart too, admit your own participation in the whole process that ended up in the accident. These very steps will be extremely important towards a new perception of the whole story.

Then remember the Sufi tale that goes like:

"Once upon a time, there was an extremely rich and powerful king who couldn't find his inner peace at all.

Very tormented, the man decided to talk to the wise men of his kingdom, who decided to give him a ring, with an inscription in the inner part of it, for him to wear under the condition that he could read that inscription only when absolutely everything was lost, to what he agreed.

Time went by and a crisis arose, the war came, and the king lost his kingdom.

He gathered all his family, friends and followers and all of them ran away. He went on loosing them one by one, but he himself kept on running away.

Lost his horse, but kept on running. His feet were bleeding and he could hear his enemies chasing him, but he kept on running.

So he came to a cliff. He thouhgt of reading the inscription but maybe not everything was lost, and he could find a way out.

Then he looked down the cliff, saw lions and realised that there was the end, so he took out the ring and read: "this too shall pass."

This very statement caused him an insight and he realised how changeable things are. This insight brought him back to his center, brought back calmness to his heart and mind, because he realised how huge and endless time is.

This sudden calmness caused his enemies to loose sight of him, thinking that that was a stone and not the king, leading them to chase him on the wrong direction.

He got rescued by a paysan, recovered his health, re-organised his army, reconquerred his kingdom.

And, the day he was walking down the streets and his people were singing and dancing for he was back, he remebered the inscription on the ring, and achieved the so dreamt inner peace."

and please, be sure that, yes, this too shall pass, Believe me, it shall pass.

Please, keep on working towards your healing goals having in mind that you are no encaged in this situation, but just passing by it in order to learn something from it. And, please, be sure that it will go away when you less expect it to and you will se yourselves on still another path.

Please, have present for yourselves that our bodies were programmed to live and not to die, that we ourselves were programmed to be happy and not to be sad, that human brains lose no function at all for they all migrate and get relocated in the brains in case of an accident, and that, yes neurons get regenerated, we can take a long breath and look towards our perfect recovery.

The best way I've found to work on this is through creative visualization and healing images. Results are amazing and I do suggest you guys to try it.

Wish you all lots of Blessings of Health, Peace and Prosperity,

Pema Deva

Please, take a look at the therapies I have been using to let this whole episode 'go on the river fo life, for it has to go, it cannot stay any longer.'

Love,

PD