Hi Sunny, I know exactly what you're going through. My oldest daughter was 10 weeks old when we were in a car accident. Due to the injuries I had ; dead at the scene, then life support for 2 weeks ( lack of oxygen to my brain ) , I don't have many memories of both Amy and Rachel's ( my younger daughter ) childhoods. When people used to remark on "how wonderful they are" , I had to ask my husband how we raised such great kids. I'd say "we must have done something right" and he'd remind me of their upbringing.

As time passed and I got better ( 7 or 8 years) , I started forming memories again. Not as many as I once did, but I can now remember Rachel starring in her school play, as well as both their graduations. ( The bigger the event, the more I remember) . One thing I have learned- I can only remember so much, so I choose what I want to retain. I know I'll never forget Amy asking me to be in the birthing room when she has her baby in June, and how she said 'I don't care how many baby blankets I get, I want one from you ". I think "emotional" memories are stored better than others.

I know how frustrating and what a loss you're feeling. It's only been 2 years for you, so things may come back. Ask for reminders ; they may jog your memory. I keep a journal for when "little " things pop into my mind ( like when Rachel played balance beam on her crib rail and fell !) . I want the girls to be able to look at the journal one day and see I am not quite the 'forgetful mum" they have labeled me as.

Big hugs to you ! I know this isn't easy, but I hope over time things will return , as they did me. Don't be afraid to ask for reminders, and try not to beat yourself up if the memory doesn't come today. Write down the things you Do remember , and perhaps you will be able to bring more things forward. It's been 27 years since that car accident and I'm still remembering things that I thought were long forgotten. ( Much to my girls' dismay at times !) -Holly

Hi Sunny- I totally understand what you are going thru- I have the same thing. My TBI was Jan 2013 and I can "recall" something if my husband reminds me, but to find a memory is very difficult. Most memories are more like a dream and I am not sure which are real memories or not. From everything I have read- what I have experienced is very common. That did not make me feel any better. You should try Brainline.org and any other brain sites you can think of. It may help you understand what you are going thru. I'm not sure it will make you feel better but it may just help cope. I will keep you in my prayers.
This is a great support group!!