I can relate to so much that has been said here...grrrr!! Do you ever just want to *pound pillows*?? Helps me release stress!! In this day and age to have a doc say you can't possibly have a Tbi/Abi if you are walking/talking....arrrrgghhh I say...back to pounding pillows!!! Any doc who says that gets * fired* asap. There are good docs out there, but boy can it take a lot out of you to find them. I think it should be a requirement that neurologists have to "Read this Site"!!! Maybe they will learn something finally. Ohh I'm in a rebellion mood today. Hugs to all!!

I think it is imperative to take someone with you who can be your reliable source to back up what your saying. Sad but true. I have to and it has gotten me help I don't think I would have gotten otherwise

Hi , I hope by now you have met a good doctor who can comprehend the hell you travel life in. Ive lost 12 years of my life 12 years Where I apparently was a Genius my career filled with successes Yet for all I know I was just a friend to Alley Cats. I went to work came home and watched TV or bugged the neighbors with super loud Pink Floyd or Moody Blues on the week ends I went to a Club in Montreal danced all night and managed to add 2 beers to my medication menu Great life I managed to convince a X from 3000 miles away in Vancouver to Get married that lasted 33 years. And imploded . 33 years of Broken bones From the incident that took my memory and along the way. I guess I hated people and when we went to in-laws the Family descended on us and I would go into a corner and Close down memory cease up all the gains I made seam to disappear. NO recall of an accident bester still I was pronounced dead at the road side Came out of while the Ambulance was coming then, died in surgery 2 more times . a full 15 minutes each at the Give up point I would splutter. Frankly and to this day I ask DOES god GIVE MAN the rights to determine death. I would have been better off had I died . Everyone I knew realized that today. at one lapse of judgement MY then X told police If that's his choice its 37 years in the making you have no concept of the pain he is hiding behind his face he shows > I am a Man of a thousand Faces Do not believe the one you see. I am still here and from that day it has seen the better part of 55 years of pain torture and mental hell.

No one is justified in keeping me alive that night. . however when all my exploits were completed some minor I made industry Probably $2 to 3 billion as I launched product development to an unthought of product by my superiors and the project them was ALL mine a person sinking deeper into Full blown Amnesia. Still Early A total of 29 Products with the same base Products . Coppied by the competitive companies they still rule the market. 100% in the world. not just Canada So good never surpassed since 1971. I recovered to I guesstimate 80-90% functional. I went more into marketing where I saw the answer to mans wort pollutant Dioxin was the hardest sell I ever had to do in the end industry let me conduct the Processing of a new product a strange new product with its Quirks. A process that meant shipping toxic compounds from one client to the next and such a huge matrix of To do things to pervert further pollution. I retired due to my injuries of 68 in 1988 but 10 years ago I happened top be in the same hotel that held the Conventions when I was captured by a horde of then my clients . And marched to the stage while they all ate and a few spoke Introduced as a GENIUS. I was only 2 years free of total amnesia probably then a 40% recovered . Again I had don the simplest thing man could do I said Stop using this product use this ! NO Genius in those words . however it was the Complexity of the Process that was staggering to them. to me it was simple . no brains it worked out on paper Lets do it.
That was ME but Proven Genius by 6 clinical psychologists all agreeing I was An Amnesiac and a Genius not typical. I should have lost IQ I was never much more than 1230 on simple tests on 8 hours a day for 6 days and never one result more than 3 points from the other 180+ What happens to us when the brain is injured is still unknown Ive had MRI no scar tissue in the region of the blow show damage to anything. A nice Black hole. I am not a Genius Just Peter as Before Shy cant spell worth a damn add Capitals whee I shouldn't cannot punctuate. I just have an insatiable appetite for knowledge . Especially Medical . YOU and I and every one of us are in a Giant Void of medicine.

Short term memory. is what I am left with The RIGHT to forget every thing and remember I forgot it all . Frustrating OH yes real OH yes can it be helped OH NO. Ive had Cancer surgery appointment for a few month A reminder ca;ll the day before then NO peter at the hospital for surgery. I am not scared of that . its a few snips and hope its all GONE . then the Chemo forgot thjat 6 of 8 times . Very important. You say Oh well its short term memory issues .
I am Cancer free today. Despite my forgetting to go to the cancer range and shoot a few.

Ive used my case to help you understand your own. My memory of PRE 1968 is great nothing was deleted. My memory of 1982 to 1986 is shot and 1990 to today spotty short term issues . Stressing simply makes it worse . And that's how I began to climb out of it. MY luck was I have been a certified hypnotist since 1965 and knew more than my Teacher's did. I began to read books on it in 1958. I used that to help me re establish the memory links we associate with intellect. What where or why they ARE who knows? literally PEEKING AND POKING as IF I was Programming a Commodore 64. One book I always recommend is THE POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING by MAXWELL MALTZ. other than that nothing but memory reprogramming can help . I am Starting to set up a web site called ?http;//wwww.stormcloudfire.ca Its going to be a blog roll and anyone will be welcome. treat it well Ill enjoy the Banter and advice I can get or give .
tour in or were in the darkest tunnel life can devise.

Please do not get discouraged. Doctors unfortunately are just humans like the rest of us. We have this notion that their word is law and we just have to live with it. My niece is a TBI patient currently in the first stages of recovery. But when she was first taken to a hospital with her injuries, the doctors were very nonchalant about her injuries and recovery. They would just tell us she is ok, or not ok. Thats it no explanation. If she had a fever we would ask why is she getting a fever they would simply say bc of the breathing machine. No explanation again. It was very jard to deal with these doctors when our loved one was fighting for her life. She has been transferred to a rehabilitation hospital where she is getting better care but i understand your frustration. But please do not guve up and do not be discouraged. You will find the right person to lead you to your full recovery. I will pray for you.