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Hi there,

I'm so happy that you are both here. I'm new to this all. I'm so sick of being so sick. I have suffered with DID, but now, with a lot of work, I am completely integrated. I suffer with PTSD and still working on triggers. I used to cut all the time, but I have 4 years without acting out. I suffer with agoraphobia and now I am diagnosed with BPD traits.

Can you share with me the symptoms you are both dealing with as a BPD?

Hello, just joined here. I am very recently diagnosed with BPD, only in February. I finally sought help because I could not understand the intensity of my emotions. See, I was going to kill myself over a long-term breakup, which didn't make sense to me because for the latter half of the relationship (it was an LDR) I had actually splitted my ex boyfriend and felt completely detached from him.

I just want to share what I believe are symptoms of mine... the splitting was definitely one.... I thought it was distance thing, well maybe it was but upon losing him I just suddenly regained all my feelings for him in a snap. It was truly the most confusing thing ever.

Another thing is the feelings of abandonment.... I can't handle people leaving me, even if they are leaving in the first place because of me. I cried and cried like it was a breakup when my best friend and I argued and she stopped talking to me. As for my ex, when he dumped me I just felt this huge sense of abandonment that led me back to my childhood.... it's a terrible feeling that I can't explain, I even begged for him to stay with me and threatened suicide and he simply just asked me why was I so obsessed with him.

One more thing that stands out for me are the overwhelming emotions... I can be very, very angry at trivial things or simply just by being in my head, thinking about a certain thing of the past. But I can be so angry to a point that it makes me want to strangle someone. On days where I am feeling sad, I can cry a river, lay in bed all day and sometimes even resort to cutting myself. On my good days I am really fine and dandy. Imagine alternating between all of these... lol... or maybe you guys feel the same way as I do too?

Anyway I'm glad to be able to find this board. Hope you all have a great week ahead.

Thanks for sharing!

How are you doing, cassichase? You mentioned you were suffering with various disorders. I'm really sorry and I hope you are doing better.

Hi Iriemon, I am not doing very well today. I'm in panic mode all day. I get so confused and having problems breathing. I know that panic attacks come and go, but this one is so heavy on my heart! My last day with my therapist was Wednesday. We have been working together for almost ten years. She is closing her practice and is moving away. I feel like my best friend just died. She was my security to manage life. We I'm just so broken. I feel abandoned.

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I'm here and needing help thru struggles as well.
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Ginger