Bisexuality Support Group
Bisexuality is a sexual orientation which refers to the aesthetic, romantic, and/or sexual attraction of individuals to other individuals of both their own and the opposite gender or sex. Most bisexuals are not equally attracted to men and women, and may even shift between states of finding either sex exclusively attractive over the course of time.
My mom is gay so i have always had this pressure or so i felt that i had to be the straightest most macho guy and it turns out i am bi sexual as well. I cannot relate for fathom how you must feel but i know what immense pressure one can be under. I have had to live my life a lie my entire childhood lying to teachers and friends that my mom had boyfriends not girlfriends. With that came a lot of domestic violence and i saw a lot of it and drug use by one of her girlfriends. I know how hard something like this is, i once actually thought i was gay after i had sex with my first guy and i asked a question on our computer and it showed the question not the details only the question and she confronted me about it. I had never felt so sick in my life but she has never mentioned it afterward. I went to extreme lengths after that to prove to her i was not gay and i even hated myself for it thinking i was sick and some how i could be cured. Well i finally accepted myself for who i am and im happy to be bi sexual. Acceptance is key and it will help you a lot on your life about accepting who you really are.
As far as the loner part i feel the same exact way because of how my mom was. I never wanted to have people over at my house and we moved a lot for her relationships which sucked a lot for me. We moved the summer of my freshman year in high school and it crushed me. I turned online because its been so so hard for me to meet people to talk to. i have always felt like the person standing on the outside looking in