I'm done! No more pills! No more no more no more!!!! I want this all to be over... I can't keep doing this balancing act! How the fuck am I supposed to be productive when i just want to cut open my veins or walk into the bay at night and drown. WHAT DOES THIS WORLD EXPECT!!!!! i have to go to the doctor today and they'll just say... "Here take these Pills:" NO NO NO NO NO MORE FUCKING PILLS! I'm done! 22 years of this is enough! Why can't i just feel okay? What is wrong with my brain... my self destruct button has been pushed and detonation is inevitable! OH PLEASE HELP ME! GOD HAS ABANDONED ME.........i am so alone
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