Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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theloveisgone
theloveisgone
I'm done! No more pills! No more no more no more!!!! I want this all to be over... I can't keep doing this balancing act! How the fuck am I supposed to be productive when i just want to cut open my veins or walk into the bay at night and drown. WHAT DOES THIS WORLD EXPECT!!!!! i have to go to the doctor today and they'll just say... "Here take these Pills:" NO NO NO NO NO MORE FUCKING PILLS! I'm done! 22 years of this is enough! Why can't i just feel okay? What is wrong with my brain... my self destruct button has been pushed and detonation is inevitable! OH PLEASE HELP ME! GOD HAS ABANDONED ME.........i am so alone
tommymott
tommymott
Here in the USA in the 1950s when the asylums and state hospitals were full of people who had no hope of living normally what one thing put most people back on the street, living on their own? Pills. Of course today there are lots of different pills and the problem is finding the right pills. I've been through that. I've now got the right pills. I hope you find yours too, because I believe in pills. It helps to work with a doc who will listen and who cares. They're still around. I hope you can feel ok and get over the pain that brings pain. You're not alone, there are many of us here who have been there and care.
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
but they don't even know what they are doing...they don't understand the brain... they don't even know why pills work! There just pill pushes with licenses!
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
Unfortunately probably at the end of the day the pills will be the solution..but it may take a while getting there.
Matt74
Matt74
stay here and continue to talk to us. I to was thinking about the same as you last week. I joined a help group for something else a couple days ago and began to find something out about many or all of my problems. One thing I am doing is just living for today and not worrying about yesterday and whats going to happen tomorrow. I am just making peace with myself today. And I really started to talk to people from my heart and really try to listen what they have to say and after a couple days now, I am feeling much better. Talking and being honest as helped me feel so much better. I hope you decide to give it a shot, there are so many people here that want to help. HUGS
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
I'm afraid they're going to send me to the hospital! I don't want to go! I don't trust psychiatrists... they used me like a guinea pig when i was only 13
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey, pills help so many of us, they really do!
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
they help me to die...sorry i can't help it I'm just so frustrated!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I hear you. Has something made the frustration worse?
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
i just broke up with my boyfriend, I quit all my classes, my moms a drunk, I'm poor and i can't seem to go to work, and I think I might have the flu
deleted_user
deleted_user
Fish is right, pills may be the solution, but have you tried therapy? Therapy may help as well. I know it helps me. This is a way to avoid pill pushers.
deleted_user
deleted_user
oh no..that is so much to deal with. :(
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
I go to therapy once a week...but i missed my last two appointments
deleted_user
deleted_user
hugs
theloveisgone
theloveisgone
I feel like i'm drowning in self pity...It's disgusting
deleted_user
deleted_user
hey, sometimes you just gotta let the self pity out to play or you might explode- I know that feeling!

You must feel angry too? Hugs
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