Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I'm one of those people who tries to erase the past completely from my mind. While I know that's impossible I still do my best.
Now I'm currently friends with my ex. He's the father of my children or I probably wouldn't even talk to him. But he has changed a lot at least for the time being. But that's not the problem.
the problem is that I was happy not knowing where he was at or what he was up to. Seeing him and hearing about what's going on with him wreaks havoc on my heart. I don't wish anything bad on him I really don't but the past keeps slapping me in the face when ever I'm around him.
Tonight I was crying, I couldn't talk and wouldn't talk about why. I could see he was desperately trying to figure it all out but he was way off on most of it. I didn't have the heart to tell him that deep inside I wish he never came back. Ignorance is bliss and he ruined my bliss.
I know he's working hard to change his life but that doesn't erase the pain of all the horrible things I endured because of him. And I mean horrible.
I thought I had moved past all that. But I guess I was running from it not past it.
Now I'm currently friends with my ex. He's the father of my children or I probably wouldn't even talk to him. But he has changed a lot at least for the time being. But that's not the problem.
the problem is that I was happy not knowing where he was at or what he was up to. Seeing him and hearing about what's going on with him wreaks havoc on my heart. I don't wish anything bad on him I really don't but the past keeps slapping me in the face when ever I'm around him.
Tonight I was crying, I couldn't talk and wouldn't talk about why. I could see he was desperately trying to figure it all out but he was way off on most of it. I didn't have the heart to tell him that deep inside I wish he never came back. Ignorance is bliss and he ruined my bliss.
I know he's working hard to change his life but that doesn't erase the pain of all the horrible things I endured because of him. And I mean horrible.
I thought I had moved past all that. But I guess I was running from it not past it.
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Hi All.... It's great to see all of the new people joining the site... I'm loving it!!...smileI'm not sure if people are aware that if you don't have Bipolar Disorder but have a loved one who has the disorder we do have a board for people to go to in order to share their experiences and seek friendship, support or adviseIt's the Friends and Family of Bipolar Board.... I hope you'll take a...
But behind that glass bubble is a raw, exposed nerve. He wouldn't/couldn't be what he needed to be for you...for any woman. In the end, he hurt you. He betrayed you. He lied to you. And after you had given everything. He wasn't supposed to do that! He was supposed to be doting. Adoring, attentive, selfless, gentle...and he didn't.
It's no wonder you're hurting so much! Just cause the wound stopped bleeding doesn't mean it's healed. Healing takes a long time. Sometimes something smacks our wound and it bleeds again. But it's still going to heal. May take a little longer, but it will heal.
Your pain will ease. It's just going to take time, unfortunately.
Sending hope and warm hugz your way!
Its ok just to feel pain , remember he must be in pain as well .
Name the feeling you are really running from and talk about it , then it gets better . Tell him about that feeling , it has a word other than pain , be specific , name it and verbalize it . Write down a list of the feelings , its not just pain it has a feeling word , find it .
Sending you some positive thoughts and a big hug :)
This too shall pass, right.
Good vibes sent your way. XX
I know him well enough though to know it's fine to be around him. I can tell when he's shifty and lieing. Right now he's working his butt off to be good. So no feelings of fear, just painful past memories.