I don\'t know when paranoia becomes psychosis, but you were so smart, so proactive to call you doctor.

If you can, have someone drive you to the appointment, take a cab, whatever. If your thoughts are that much out of control, you could be a danger to others or yourself by driving alone.

Be safe. Check in again when you know more.

I am confused - where is the paranoia? What were you paranoid about? I would get paranoid the govt was coming after me and my kids and there was a conspiracy & had to cover my windows in foil to prevent them from seeing in & I wanted to leave the country - things like that. You mentioned hallucinations, nothing about paranoia... am I missing something?

Sorry my paranoia was running rampant the last couple of days.....thinking that someone is gonna break into my house and knock me off it\'s that bad. I posted about said paranoia yesterday and locked the house in the middle of the afternoon. Called the pdoc but she wasn\'t in.....so she\'s already been called. I just don\'t know what to do anymore if it\'s mania. I am ready to give in and let the mania take over my soul. I am sick and tired of this damn disease....sorry for the language but it is that bad. I can\'t sleep, I can\'t focus. I was manic last week and they had to raise my meds. I think the mania broke through my med adjustment and needs to be adjusted again.

regarding your night visions, they may be hypnagogic hallucinations which are common in all people, mine are usually spiders in the bed that freaks me because I have a mild spider phobia. My experience is that these are more common when I am stressed.

http://www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/40002314/

I think paranoia is defined as a psychotic state, but it\'s much watered down in common language...

Thanks.....I thought they were from the mania for one second there.....wasn\'t sure what they were....I hate snakes....I can\'t stand to be around them. It drives me insane when I see one.

I hope you get in contact with your pdoc soon & that you start feeling better asap. :-) You need your sleep.

It might be mania, but it might be this type of hallucination, it\'s where you are semi asleep but think you are awake, they are usually fleeting but often very vivid.

as you say, you have a call in to the pdoc, describe it to them and they\'ll give you a more definative opinion

Thanks I appreciate it amalzhir. I am going insane. It\'s like the mania was staved off for like a week then came back with a vengence. I am sick and tired of feeling this way. I really do miss my stability......

Thanks Fish, I read the information on them it may be that. Like I said I was dreaming and then something bit me and I was having these hallucinations and I was trying to wake my husband up at the same time because I was scared out of my mind and I couldn\'t sleep. I almost took extra geodon last night when I realized I couldn\'t sleep but decided against it. I thought that just maybe things would get better but they only ended up getting worse.

Oh that sucks. I hate the waking nightmares. Shadow people I can deal with- they scare me tons but I can deal with them. The full on hallucinations make me want to cry for my mommy.

(((hugs))) I hope you can get in touch with the doc today and figure this out!

I think there\'s a fine line between hallucinations and nightmares. I\'ve been having recurring nightmares and it always involves being lost in an unfamiliar place, alone, separated from my husband, late for a plane. test time at school for which I never went to class all semester (I dream that one a lot), last night a bunch of bad men were hurting a kitten and I was hiding under a table- all dreams. I\'m always so happy to wake up. I was manic for so long and for the last month or so I\'ve been sleeping at least 12 hours a night. I\'m afraid it\'s going to progress to daytime, but can\'t worry about what hasn\'t happened yet. Keep on asking yourself, "Is this really real?" Maybe you can talk yourself down off the ledge. You will be in my thoughts bun bun!

hmm..I would say that the hallucinations are different from nightmares. Nightmares never start me screaming and jumping out of bed.Nightmares don\'t involve hearing voices, or being touched in the same way..or smelling smells.

They are common among the recently bereaved and are often thought of as being "visitations" from departed loved ones.

So all in all I would say they are a very different experience, much more "real" than nightmares.

Mania induced hallucinations probably feel different again.

thanks acuriousfish for the differences. I am not hallucinating or hearing things, thank God. I\'m easily frightened- very needle phobic so I could never be on Lithium. I guess I\'m BP2 and grateful. I think weaning from wine is just agitating the situation, and I\'m always tired now. I was manic for so long it felt good and it was before I was diagnosed. Finally my husband said I was driving him crazy by verbalizing every thought to where he could never have his own thoughts. That\'s when I got my first shrink appt- while I was manic. Then someting bad and another thing bad threw me in to deep depression. I guess I\'m in the tweens right now, but mostly anxious, nervous, and afraid. I think about the apocalypse a lot and have been hording food and first aid, ammo and guns. I want to be ready if the shit hits the fan and flee to our cabin in the woods. I don\'t guess that\'s too normal either, but it seems perfectly logical to me.