Have a good evening with your hubby, Sammie. Hope you feel better soon.

I am battling demons..apparently real ones according to my sister in law....

Thank you Zany. Just a bad day today. I think my anxiety is high also cause my doc is on vacation next week. He'll have one on call but it stresses me out. Bout to take my Xanax though and that will take the edge off.

SW-

ha, I'm watching Law and Order, too, on Netflix...but I'm watching "criminal intent" with vincent donofrio. (supposedly a fellow beeper)

just took my second hydrocodone of the day. *sigh*

making lasagne.

Soss...........what can I do to help? I battle demons just about every day of my life in the way of intrusive thoughts. I don't see a flesh and blood or whatever kinda demon, but the devil sure does get in my head. Motha fucka!! Giving you loving hugs right now to know that you are not alone. *Squeeze*

linasmom, how do you cook? That's more than I can do. Yeah, I like Criminal Intent too. And SVU. They had an SVU where Stabler's daughter turns out to be BP I. Like his mom apparently is on the show.

Hey Linas?? Pass me one of dem Hydros if you have one to spare. Perty please? I can't wait to go to the doc on the 16th of September to try and get my own..........either Hydros or Percocet. Pain sucks!!

I like SVU. I can't think of the chic's name..........Stabler's partner.........Olivia that's it!! I like her and IceT.

gonna drive in San Francisco next weekend. Live in a town of 2500 here, been a while since I've been to a city.

hell no, I'm not actually cooking the lasagne,- although I usually do. Tonight, it's by "James Food" and lemme tell you - it's delicious. Despite my hard core italian belief that no one's sauce is better than mine - their lasagne is good. So I just pop it in the oven and let it do its thing.

I totally saw the one where stabler's daughter was bp - her grandmother was bp too and she is the one who convinced her to get help. I can't believe I remember this shit.


Chelle, oooo, percocet!!! I'd rather have one of those!! But seriously, I'd rather the pain not be there. *le sigh*

waking up xx

I just got a new job that I'll be starting next week. I'm moving between being scared as shit that I'm going to fuck it up, to being really excited that I got the job in the first place. Does this qualify as rapid cycling???

eating peanut butter and crackers..spent the day working on my grocery list (sorted through freezer and fridge, recipes and flyers), paying bills, talking to creditors/lawyers, reading "A Long Way Gone" a book about boy soldiers (makes me feel lucky I have what I have). Snuggling with my kittens. I didn't go out today although my house arrest let me for 2 hours between 2pm and 4pm....can't afford the taxi ($40) to go into town and back got to wait until my worker comes on Monday to take me in. The kitchen is a mess and I need to clean the bathroom floor where the toilet overflowed this week. Waiting for my neighbor ...it was her birthday yesterday and last week she admired my earings...well I found an exact pair of them in my gift box (I buy stuff and put it away in case of emergency gifts) the next day. So I painted a little wooden box, put some tirm on it and put the ear-rings inside with tissue paper. Also I wrote her a nice card. She was my first friend when I moved in here and since I have met a lot of people through her so I consider her very special.

watching tv mellowing out kinda numb

trying not to cry. Have taken 5 percocet already and my head still feels like it is in a vice.