I'm sittin' here thinkin' of how much time I waste thinking other's thoughts for them, running off for hours on instant reaction to life's simplest bull shits, and questioning the integrity of people's motives.

I'm doing this because people are a lot like me - bitchy-cunt face one day, sweet as pie the next. They may not be bi polar and feel as deeply or for as long as I do, but I can surely see I'm not as different as I think myself to be.

And now I want some Cheeze Its.

I'm sipping some tomato soup and watching a movie with my mom. Nice to be out of the house. Later, I'll be doing the bills. Blek! Hope you're doing well, Zany.

My first day back to work after my second oral surgery this month. Face is numb and I'm doped up on pain meds, but amazingly I am getting some work done. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

Dang Chelle, I admire you for keeping at it when you are in such pain. Cudos to you girl!!!

I am feeling better today, had a short cycle of depression and now heading back up. I hate rapid cycling.

I am quite busy today.....breakfast with the girls I work with on the Christmas Tree Farm, grocery shopping, picking up a few last things for our vacation, drawing up a proposal for a client I have a meeting with tomorrow and.....getting my hair cut. I only have a few things left to do, then I am laxin......xo

T..........we are all the same I think when it boils down to it. Us bipolars just have more thoughts and a wider variance of symptoms/feelings that come along with our ever changing brain chems. I tend to try to think for others too especially if I think their thinking is lax. Hugs.

Jen..........got that tomato soup again I hear. LOL. You are incorrigible!! ;)

Ruidoso..........I hope you heal well during this post-surgical period and that the pain meds continue to work for you.

Shell.............glad you are feeling better honey. Where you vacationing to? You are always such a busy soul. When do you ever rest? Guess that's why the vacation, huh? Duh for me!! It is hard to be in such pain day in and day out. Sometimes I let it get to me. I do a lot of sitting. So much so that I feel guilty about it but it is the way I cope. Hugs sweetie.

Chelle, we put so much more guilt on ourselves than we need to. We don't all have good support and some spouses can make us feel horrible. I believe part of acceptance of any illness is realizing we may be limited by it. Keeping the lines of communication open with family is very important.

I do stop, when I cycle down, I spend days in bed. I have to make up for it while I can. Having all four boys living with us isnt easy either but I have to admit, they are wonderful support for me and help alot. We are going to Myrtle Beach with another couple. We have been doing every year for 20 some years. First with our kids and now just as couples. The hardest thing is driving away from the house and hoping it is still standing when we return, LOL.

Have a great day Chelle, you are amazing to me and have the most tender heart I have ever known....xo

Dragging my feet about getting ready for my shrink appointment. Some days, I just don't feel like being psychoanalyzed, ya know? Plus, if anyone knows Houston, his office is on the other side of town and today I just don't feel like driving. I'm bummiin'.

Sitting here at the computer listening to the co-worker on my left go on about her boyfriend, while my co-worker on the right won't stop playing the same Neil Sedaka CD over and over. Ughhhh, I wish I had a beer right about now.

Sorry about you being in such pain Zany. I hope everyone else is doing ok this afternoon.

Gettin fatter by the minute! Drank 1/2 2 liter of mountain dew, ate cheesy poofs, cookies, bagel, hamburger,and a bowl of cereal so far. I'm bored, no car again today, still in jammies, watched some tv recordings I had....that's about it. Gloomy outside again today, i think maybe the weather is adding to the joint pain I am having. My knuckles are so swollen and my back is killing me....so lazy for another day!

I am working...well pretending to be working while I am really playing around on DS. LOL

I feel better today. My interview went well I think. My dad had a nickel size hole cut into his head. They are analyizing it and will get back to him.

Oh and my husband is actually working today, his sister managed to get him out of the house to help her. WOOHOO and she is going to pay him even better!!

I have class tonight after work and then no more till next Wednesday..

Hope everyone has a rockin Thursday!

unfastening the sails as I park my sea-farer on the misty moors of the danish shores

I am lying in bed for the millionth day wishing I could go downstairs and clean the tornado results that my sons created while I have been lying in bed upstairs.

I need to change my double windows to some type of small walk out porch off of my bedroom. I might get to see the sun. I will go down stairs only when I feel I have to.

I haven't been to the basement in well over a week which is also a AC/heated living space. My laziness mixed with some agoraphobia has kept me as a prisioner on my top floor. It is frustrating, but I have just about everything I need up here.

I am tired of lying in bed. I am tired of watching TV. I am tired of not facing the fear of going downstairs. I'm so very tired.

T

Shell..........you are amazing!! xox

Tinks............Cheers!!

Soss...........when do you expect to know something about that job? How did class go?

DY...........I hear ya on the munching. I am in pain today too.

Sammie.........how did your appointment go?

T............do you have antianxiety med you can take that will allow you to leave the upstairs?

hi Chelle, just hope your pain goes away soon.