I am so angry with the world right now. I honestly have every right to be in this moment but I know that does not solve my problems. The fact that my whole life has been centered around academics almost my identity at times. It was not that way due to my parents or another external facts but because I wanted it to be, I love education. I see academics as a luxury it is not about how much money you make in my mind with a degree but about how many times you have impacted a clients life. How many times you have researched, helped a client and touched thier lives. So my wholfe life has been always making the best grades and being involved and outgoing socially. During my first year at college it had been the most challenging struggle I had faced thus far, I had been in and out of the mental hostpital three times as well as many different medication changes and some other very awful expirences. I lost who I was at the end of those years but I maintaned my GPA as well as never falling behind. I even took a year off to focus on my mental health just so i could figure out I wanted to become a social work and I changed my major. This last year of school I have done very well as well as gottten into my professional program for social work, only three semesters left. My alcholic father decided he was no longer going to do my fasfa this time which, is a need for school and I dont have my parents (dad and step mom) taxes and I am still claimed on theirs therefore, I have to have them fill out their tax information. This has to be done in order to recive financial aid. We have very strained reltionship and have always dealt with the worst of him, but on the fourth of July he got upset with me over a conversation I did not bring up nor even say much. He was drunk had been drinking all day and a flip switched and he started cussing me out saying I was sorry piece of shit bitch. Like ok lol, so im used to it but also tired of it so I texted my step mom WHO IS A MENTAL HEALTH NURSE PRACTNIONCER SO LIKE WHAT and said i could not be around them anymore thinking my fasfa was already done for the year and I told her I can't be around this anymore or I will never be okay. They all blocked me and they never did my fasfa. Like what parents don't want their kids in school for a degree??? Most parents beg for that, and also something that i have worked so hard for and was so close to finishing. Juts very frustrated so sorry for the rant, not looking for suggestions on anything but kind and supportive words would be great! I am very drained right now from talking to the school advisors and finacial people and dealing with all of this, I just really needed to get this out there to other people and vent. Already feel better writing this. I am capable though and will figure it out! Thanks for listening to me vent <3