Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Dalton2016
Dalton2016
You ever feel like your stuck in a rut? I do. I feel like I can't get out of this vicious anxious, depressed, restless, agitated, suicidal phase that drives me nuts. I know the phases of bipolar and such, I just don't understand how one gets out of a phase. Sure time, time will heal all, but it's been going on months now. I try talking to my dr.'s but they refuse to change anything(I believe they are out of ideas). I go out, I get things off my mind, I work a LOT to get my mind off this vicious cycle. Therapist can't come up with anything and either can I. I'm just confused on what to do when I'm running so fast and slow at the same time that my mind just wants to explode and I just want to die. Anyone ever been this way before? Thanks a bunch!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Totally understand that!! I was in that same darn thing for a year and half!! I felt like all my creative thoughts and positive amazing future plans/ideas were just slightly out of reach in my own head. I kept telling my husband that I could feel it all right there, almost like when you are coming up out of the water and can see the light but can't quite get there and you are stuck somewhere in between drowning and bursting out into the light and taking an amazing breath that fills your lungs that were lacking air.
Then I plunged into a deep depression for about 2 months, went way manic for about a week and a half and now feel cautiously "normal".
The rut is a terrible place. I'm so sorry that you are there. I did something completely different than what I have ever done to snap myself out of it. I had to force myself to have an adrenaline experience to get out of the depression that came after the rut. Maybe if I had done it sooner, I wouldn't have gone into the depression???

Have an experience that will be exhilarating to you and maybe it will help snap you out of it? Just a thought..
TexasMade
TexasMade
Due to my Bipolar I've had to give up things I've treasured family heirlooms like jewelry t h ings my motherland me to give to my daughter. Enjoy these precious things and wear them with a sense of well being.
TexasMade
TexasMade
Sorry wrong post.
spacekat
spacekat
Oh the rut. I'm sorry you're in it! I feel like I'm in and out of it constantly and can't wrap my brain around how to get out and STAY out. But that's the nature of BP. Ups and downs, ruts and bumps. Just keep up a positive attitude. Do you exercise? Now is a good time! Read? I know it's hard to concentrate, but if you can.... Breathe - ALWAYS!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I've had problems with this same thing... I want to get back into therapy.... I was in a cognitive therapy group years ago and it helped a lot..
Have you tried cognitive or DBT?
zonker
zonker
Oh man. I think it's great you're working to cope.
Yeah, you could try something really different for a jolt. There are things I used to enjoy but was too depressed & distracted to want to do, but I push myself hard to do them again, sometimes they are just a distraction from my mood, but it's like a way to "trick my mind" into slowing down & relaxing. They say exercise, Sleep schedule, well you know what they say, but sometimes a bad funk will just run it's course out. Sounds like a "Mixed State." I hate those! - Symptoms from both sides of the spectrum.
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