Well if you feel the sudden urge to jump off of the bridge then my suggestion would be not to go near it cuz our urges can actually turn into our actions if we are not strong enough. Jut try to stay away from it if you are feeling that way. But if you felt in control at the moment then I dont see why you shouldnt have gone there. Just dont do it when you are having those images and thoughts racing through your head

Hm. The first few weeks that I stopped drinking I smuggled a miniature bottle of vodka into my room, even though drinking it might have killed me. I wasn't going to drink it. I wasn't even planning on it. But I liked to look at it.
It's just the knowledge that the option of oblivion is there. There's something empowering about it, when you know you have a choice. When you feel that oblivion is a necessity, that's the problem.
But when you can stand and stare at the Thames without intending to chuck yourself in, well, there's comfort in knowing you can simply stare self-destruction in the face and walk away.
That's how I see it, anyway.
I'm not saying it wasn't risky to go down there though... :)

I agree w/#1 comment. Plus you just don't want to feed that monster.

Maybe if you stare your demon in the eyes, it will scare you so much you wont want to face it anymore.

I used to think about driving off an overpass here. I started to drive over that overpass every day. Each time I did, it scared the hell out of me. I stopped thinking about it after that. Hugs

I can understand where Shelly is coming from. But it all goes back to wheither if you think you are strong enough to look your "demon" in the face or whatever you want to call it. Sometimes I have to stray away from whatever is bothering me until I can come up with enough courage to actaully face it. And when I finally do I am very proud of my iner strength and I feel like I have won the battle for the time being.

I agree with #1 and also Shelly.

I think it is an over powering feeling we have that what If we just end it. no more pain. But that is not you thinking it is the beast.

Even non-bipolars have these feelings according to my psychologist, but ours is stronger.

I suggest stay away. You never know what your mind set is.

Been there! I have a favorite place I went a lot as a child. This park has a parking lot facing the water. It has a cliff-like thing you can pull your car up to. I have imagined just driving right over it into the water.
I feel as if I could just close my eyes 4-ever s.times. But, 2sides.. is right,I've tried to turn "those places" into peaceful spots. If that makes sence.

Thank you for the responses. Glad others understand what I mean.

x-Bliss-x

Yip I have done things like that a few times

But usually I get the cold adrenaline rush in my chest and it puts me off

But then I like that feeling of the adrnaline rush (this sounds like what you get), so i go back and put myself in the same situation again

i haven't found a solution apart from simply trying not to think about it.

can totally relate to this , i used to carry enough pill to kill me everywhere i went, i've never taken them but i've brought them out and just stared at them many a time, my ex went crazy about it when he found them.
i also used to come to a certain part of the motorwy that i used to think , now if i just put my foot down and go straight here , i'll be dead in a matter of minutes, i think it is i kinda control thing , it would give me strength if i could just try to resist it , my ex couldnt understand it in the slightest and it caused major problem for us ,thankfully its been a while since ive really thought bout suicide x
as to whether it wrong , id say it is risky but only you yourself truely know , have you got anyone close by that you can totally confide in that would maybe go with you , and maybe in time the urge will soften , i know for me everyone findin out just what went through my head at times really helped x