Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I find myself obsessing over end of world prophecies and I find myself wishing them to be true. When I was going through my psychosis, a voice told me that the whole world was going "Home." I took that to mean heaven was merging with earth and I was elated. Now to find out NOTHING has changed in the world at all is really disappointing. Now I find myself just praying a comet will hit the earth, or a tsunami hits L.A, or that the planet Nibiru is real, or that aliens will take over the world. Anything.
I know nothing will happen this year. Nothing ever does. I will continue to have to trudge through life, feeling just half alive. I still hold onto a glimmer of hope that something will happen, but deep down I know it wont. I would kill myself but I don't have the guts. I wish I had the guts to do so. Instead I sit and wait for something to happen to me. Maybe I should go play on some railroad tracks. Sorry I don't even know what I'm typing. I just needed to vent somewhere.
Meds aren't helping and I have zero hope that anti depressants will do anything for me except offer terrible side effects. I would swallow a bunch of pills, but I don't want to survive and be worse off than I already am.
I wish there was an easier way to die. I wish they had suicide booths like in Futurama. I see other people posting here who have tried to kill themselves. I wish I could offer help to others, but I don't even remember what it feels like to be happy and content. I don't know if I'll ever feel happy and content again. So I wish the world, at least my world would end already. I know I'm abnormal, but all these end of world prophecies are just one big tease.
I know nothing is gonna happen. I wake up every morning punching my pillow because I don't want to face another day. I don't even have a job or anything to go to right now, yet simply existing is a big hassle. I don't understand why we go through so much just to try and survive. I don't want to survive anymore. Sorry I just need to vent because I know my boyfriend and dad are tired of hearing it.
I really wish I was aborted. My mom had like 4 abortions and I was the "lucky" one. Oh joy.
I know nothing will happen this year. Nothing ever does. I will continue to have to trudge through life, feeling just half alive. I still hold onto a glimmer of hope that something will happen, but deep down I know it wont. I would kill myself but I don't have the guts. I wish I had the guts to do so. Instead I sit and wait for something to happen to me. Maybe I should go play on some railroad tracks. Sorry I don't even know what I'm typing. I just needed to vent somewhere.
Meds aren't helping and I have zero hope that anti depressants will do anything for me except offer terrible side effects. I would swallow a bunch of pills, but I don't want to survive and be worse off than I already am.
I wish there was an easier way to die. I wish they had suicide booths like in Futurama. I see other people posting here who have tried to kill themselves. I wish I could offer help to others, but I don't even remember what it feels like to be happy and content. I don't know if I'll ever feel happy and content again. So I wish the world, at least my world would end already. I know I'm abnormal, but all these end of world prophecies are just one big tease.
I know nothing is gonna happen. I wake up every morning punching my pillow because I don't want to face another day. I don't even have a job or anything to go to right now, yet simply existing is a big hassle. I don't understand why we go through so much just to try and survive. I don't want to survive anymore. Sorry I just need to vent because I know my boyfriend and dad are tired of hearing it.
I really wish I was aborted. My mom had like 4 abortions and I was the "lucky" one. Oh joy.
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
Prophecies are a pile of shit in my book. But then I used to be a scientist.