Big hug for you Loddy….. I'm sorry that you've been so sick sweetie.... If you want to go to church I would call the church and see what's available later in the day

A friend of mine goes to church in the evening.... There may be other things with the church that might be a good support for you as well.... I'd call the office there and talk with the secretary..... xo

Thank you both for your kind and helpful words. I know where there's a church that holds Sunday evening services. I see a therapist.

When you were in the hospital did they do blood work to check your thyroid, iron levels, and other stuff? That might be something you should look into with your primary care physician.

It can take some time to adjust to Inpatient life vs. Outpatient life, I've spent long periods of time Inpatient in the past and it's kind of a different world. I'd give yourself some time. Being in an environment where you don't have a support system and don't feel comfortable just kind of adds to it all. I'm sorry your having those issues. I don't do "extended family" either. Its just me, my sons, my spread-distance S.O. and my ex-MIL (I got her in the Divorce, thank God). I guess its my pick and choose family. My actual "family" I have plenty of, but have nothing to do with.

Its good that you're working with your Therapist, maybe talk more about the "family's" intimidation tactics and coping skills you can learn to not let them get away with so much crap. You are strong enough to get through this, sometimes it takes some time for that strength to come up to the surface. Don't let them convince you different.

Going to Church in the evening sounds like a good idea, meeting some people who aren't family, sounds like a great idea! Doing things that give you Joy tend to help battle the tiredness and fatigue of it all, so try for the Joy.

Hang in there.
Kat

I spent about a month in the hospital. Got out in Jul of last year. Went in under a suicidal crisis and to get my meds right. Come to find out I was incorrectly diagnosed and the doc was making me worse pill by pill. Got me a lot of attention... like every three minutes 24/7.

But to your question, I still feel like I should go back inside and if offered I would. I am still screwed up and am like yourself anxious all the time and still depressed. My therapist said to take one day at a time and call if I become suicidal. Should have called last week.

Get involved. It will give you something to hold onto in the dark of depression. If not the church something else. The church is probably one of the best. On getting out of bed, get someone else (girlfriend, boyfriend, small dogs,...) to call and get you out of bed. You will feel better after the service. You also have an opportunity to talk with the pastor. Maybe not really good talk but you get a chance to speak some of the words we fear to speak. When I started to get worse, I unloaded to the Chaplin. Was helpful.

Post a reply if you make it to Palm Sunday Service.

There are many that leave the hospital and wanted/needed more time. Once you are out, you are back into your life. The hospital was safe and disconnected from your life. It sucks and I still want to go back in.

Spencer
In the Sunlight

You know Thor is spot on. Volunteering, and you can start very small so your not overwhelmed is a great way to give back to others and help then understand that there are others that care about them and want to help them.

It also give you a feeling of connection and a peace that comes with knowing that you might not be wit worst off person you know. Helping other is the thing that tends to make people understand that there are people out there that are worse off than ourselves.....and when you help someone or some animal that is worse than you, it tends to help you begin to build yourself up and learn that you do matter, you are strong enough you are an important person in this lie.

Anf if your so-called family tries to tell you any different, just tell them to take a flying leap. It your life.

Kat

I did have bloodwork done in hospital, it was all fine. I didn't make it to church on Sunday. I'm going to look into this other church.
Thanks for listening & for all your good advice. I feel better now.

One day at a time, that's all Jesus expects of us. You are doing pretty good from reading what you've said!
Make a list and do at least two things on it each day. If you only do one, good!
Give praise to God for whatever you are able to do. Im right there with you! May God bless you and continue to update us on how you are doing!

MrsOtto: Are you BiPolar?

Fibro with manic dep n anxiety...feel bipolar with ups and downs, manic and feeling good and then crashing but they say it's fibro.

Okay...Manic Depression is BiPolar. And there's no such thing as Fybromyalgia with Manic Depression as a symptom...I don't know the "they" are who told you that.

It is "thought" that Psychological Stress and Trauma can cause Fibro, but it is primarily classified as a Central Nervous System Medical Illness. Honestly they still don't really know where it comes from or what exactly it is.

BiPolar (old name Manic Depression) on the other hand is a proven Mental Illness caused by a Chemical Imbalance in the Brain.

Have you been seen or diagnosed by a Psychiatrist? If not, perhaps you should so you can get your Diagnosis correct and the proper treatment.

If the "they" are Medical Dr.'s, "they" are not qualified to make a Mental Illness Diagnosis.