The fact that you are aware that this is not a good place to be is a good thing. Keep telling your Pdoc that you are not okay until he/she listens. The squeaky wheel gets the oil. And if you are not seeing a Pdoc, don\'t give up the search. I have lived in several states and each time I\'ve had to find new doctors, fun, fun, fun! Worth it in the long run though. Be persistent, make phone calls. You will eventually find a doctor that makes a difference. In the mean while go to your local county mental health clinic.

What you are going through is very similar to what I went through just a week or so ago. I am a rapid cycler anyway, but because of alot of stress and not a lot of sleep I was going up and down all week long, several times a day. I also got into a fight with my husband (I was VERY irritable, and I started it, but it ended up with me cutting myself, just like you, and I, too, had promised never to do that again.) I don\'t know what meds you\'re on, but my guess is something is either off there? Do you know what\'s setting it off for you (stress, lack of sleep, etc?) My main advice to you is to GET A DOCTOR TO HELP YOU RIGHT AWAY. In the meantime, if you need to talk, I\'m here. Hugs to you.

Thanks I am only seeing a g.p he dosent listen well at all..I have went to the mental health clinic in my area(my docter sent me there when i reefused to refill anything untill i got another oppion) ah promblem I can bet my docter talked to this one(about me) WAY befor i saw him.My gp was the one to tell me the pdoc didnt think needed to see him or anyone! so my gp just says I CANT! This has been for a long time comeing its just got bad that I cant handle in the last couple months. stress..my nanny passed away lifes in the air grapa got new gf. work sucks..not working as hard cuz im just at a lack of life. and i cant explan to the old age home produceter im messed in the head cuz then my job gose bye bye..my main boss know cuz she is a famliy friend but she thinks its all in my head i can handle it(yes it is in my head!!! damnit lol) im calling the p-doc well i think right now its 24hour office secrctry and that company set ANYone in canada with a p-doc or case worker whatever u need. and one that fits ur need..yes at a cost for some but i dont care!

I\'m glad that you are calling someone. Finding a good doctor has been an IMMENSE struggle for me, but finally I have found someone who FINALLY listens to me. Did you say you live in Canada? I\'m not sure about there, but you can look up and rate doctors (and hear other people\'s comments online). Also, a good THERAPIST has been probably the most helpful person that I have found to deal with this disorder. I don\'t want to overwhelm you, but I would definitly try to find one for you as well.

the pice i looked up on the docter who is connexting all these people..i looked for my province and even my health care plan witch is the goverments but im sure they dont cover this..oh well lucky i dont pay rent(god love my rents they rite now just wanna see me stable and not lose my job)..UPDATE!! I just got off the phone..i didnt no p-docs had an after hours number wow..i need one now really badly theres been so many times i though shit even an voice mail would be nice lol(g.ps office) The lady was Really nice and said I was looking for a appoment !! so wait wait i go see a p-doc frist and he/she desides if i need to be there or what i need ..Wow!!! im excited so it will be like my assesment when i got re dx with bipolar(refused to believe my gp after 2 yrs on meds :P) sounds like alot of telling my life story..Ah oh well mum said becarefully when she went to one cuz she couldnt get preggers they said it was her mums flut and they had a falling out because of it..so me being really bad at explaning things will have to think befor i explan a story or i normoal make who every nomraly my mum or bf sound like an ass..i dont mean too I guess i leave out there ponit a inhase mine .. Once agin i done mean too im alot better now