I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster. Every other day is a bad day. The good thing about it is that, when a good day follows as it invariably does, I can never remember what made them bad days LOL. Amnesia is definitely a plus here. :)

Just had a med tweak, the pdoc increased my Celexa. I think it's helping me be more clear-headed, at least it seems that way. I'm on Clozaril and Zyprexa for auditory hallucinations. I heard them the other day after I got home from a visit to one of my sisters. I thought about taking a Haldol but, I was able to wait them out. My oldest sister Charlene (not her real name) was in a foul mood today, and said I need to find another doctor. She just doesn't understand. Unfortunately, psychiatry isn't an exact science. I've felt like a guinea pig at times, let's try a little more of this and a little less of that etc. I like Dr. P, it isn't his fault the med changes don't always work. So the Celexa is working but the Clozaril isn't.

I understand that Char isn't angry with me, she's just unhappy that I haven't met with success with some meds. Char has a lot of physical pain from arthritis and diabetic neuropathy. My pain is all mental and emotional. I try not to get angry at God, because a mental illness can definitely interfere with my communication with Him at times. Everyone has something in their lives that causes problems. Even Jesus cried, "My God,My God, why have You forsaken me?"

So that's my check-in because I hadn't posted for a while. Hugs to everyone.