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I can't decide if I should tell my pdoc that I feel that I might need to go to the hospital. This is why:
1. I don't know if I need a safe place or not. Sometimes I am fighting and I can rally, and sometimes I go to a really dark place that only a ton of sleep and Klonopin can pull me out of.
2. I am afraid that going to the hospital will be my excuse for screwing up the past week so badly. Like "hey, don't blame me, look at how sick I was."
3. I am also afraid that I am just trying to escape responsibilities that I should be attending to.
To give you guys some background, this week was the first week of classes. For various reasons, school is a trigger for me, so I made it to my first class but had three panic attacks after. I had to pick up a prescription at my pdoc's office where I promptly lost it on the receptionist and told her how bad things were. She told my pdoc who called me on her lunch to ask me how I was. She asked me if she should worry about me and I lied and said no. Thing is, I told her I'd be okay, so I kind of have to be until I see her again. I DID end up in ER on Thursday night however, with another massive panic attack where I was shaking uncontrollably and throwing up and almost passed out. They gave me Ativan and sent me home after I promised not to OD on it. Of course, in my darker moments, it's an idea, but I made a promise and plus, I don't want to get into a situation where my doctors are hesitant to give me medications.
So I'm keeping my promise to my pdoc until Tuesday, and then I don't know what to do. Should I just let her tell me what she thinks (she is an AMAZING pdoc)? I don't know how to make this decision.
I'm sorry if this is too long or if I sound really whiny. I'm just not quite sure what to do..
1. I don't know if I need a safe place or not. Sometimes I am fighting and I can rally, and sometimes I go to a really dark place that only a ton of sleep and Klonopin can pull me out of.
2. I am afraid that going to the hospital will be my excuse for screwing up the past week so badly. Like "hey, don't blame me, look at how sick I was."
3. I am also afraid that I am just trying to escape responsibilities that I should be attending to.
To give you guys some background, this week was the first week of classes. For various reasons, school is a trigger for me, so I made it to my first class but had three panic attacks after. I had to pick up a prescription at my pdoc's office where I promptly lost it on the receptionist and told her how bad things were. She told my pdoc who called me on her lunch to ask me how I was. She asked me if she should worry about me and I lied and said no. Thing is, I told her I'd be okay, so I kind of have to be until I see her again. I DID end up in ER on Thursday night however, with another massive panic attack where I was shaking uncontrollably and throwing up and almost passed out. They gave me Ativan and sent me home after I promised not to OD on it. Of course, in my darker moments, it's an idea, but I made a promise and plus, I don't want to get into a situation where my doctors are hesitant to give me medications.
So I'm keeping my promise to my pdoc until Tuesday, and then I don't know what to do. Should I just let her tell me what she thinks (she is an AMAZING pdoc)? I don't know how to make this decision.
I'm sorry if this is too long or if I sound really whiny. I'm just not quite sure what to do..
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
I vote no.
Maybe an outpatient version?
They never helped me, just sent me a several thousand dollar co-pay (that I never pay anyway) LOL
Your have to have a roomate who knows what the fuck is wrong with them and they treat you like a prisoner.
I found the structure and interaction in group therapy, plus working with the social workers when I went to the hospital extremely helpful. I was suicidal prior to admission.