Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Thats seriously the only thing thats going through my head for a subject. Yes I had to read Hamlet recently.
I'm sick of all the stuff...every week, every day it is something else. I'm too tired to go over what this year has been like and i don't see how i could stay ok this long. I've been sick on my stomach all morning probably from the srress. I've missed alot of days in this one class and you are not to miss 20%...i have no idea where I'm at on attendance. I have an A in that class though. I have only about 3 weeks in this semester. I'm going to talk to that instructor and let her know what kund of stress I've been under so maybe she won't take action...I don't think she has to, I think its according to her discretion.
If i lose one class that means no financial loan for next semester...
Anyway, another thing...they ended up scheduling a project completion on the day i have an appt to get in to see a therapist again...if i can..on sliding scale. I guess I will have to call and reschedule. My husband was hoping I wouldn't do it because he's afraid of it effecting my chances of fetting into the social work program.
I feel like throwing my hands up and quitting. That part of me that is saying forget this...its a waste of time..you won't meet your goals because something always stops you from getting there every time. You might as well OD like you really want to do...or just disappear for good...so you can put an end to all this pain that has been your life since 15. U will never get an easy day again. I feel like there is a curse on me, perhaps from satan or maybe it is God's unhappiness with me. I was told misery would come to me if I walked away from him. I don't know. I just wanted to live a life helping people that the rest of the world ignores. I am functional most of the time. But this burden of stress would make even normal people crack. If I can't do good in this world I don't want to be a burden to it. I'm really thinking of just putting an end to all this. If I lose my fight I lose it all.
I'm sick of all the stuff...every week, every day it is something else. I'm too tired to go over what this year has been like and i don't see how i could stay ok this long. I've been sick on my stomach all morning probably from the srress. I've missed alot of days in this one class and you are not to miss 20%...i have no idea where I'm at on attendance. I have an A in that class though. I have only about 3 weeks in this semester. I'm going to talk to that instructor and let her know what kund of stress I've been under so maybe she won't take action...I don't think she has to, I think its according to her discretion.
If i lose one class that means no financial loan for next semester...
Anyway, another thing...they ended up scheduling a project completion on the day i have an appt to get in to see a therapist again...if i can..on sliding scale. I guess I will have to call and reschedule. My husband was hoping I wouldn't do it because he's afraid of it effecting my chances of fetting into the social work program.
I feel like throwing my hands up and quitting. That part of me that is saying forget this...its a waste of time..you won't meet your goals because something always stops you from getting there every time. You might as well OD like you really want to do...or just disappear for good...so you can put an end to all this pain that has been your life since 15. U will never get an easy day again. I feel like there is a curse on me, perhaps from satan or maybe it is God's unhappiness with me. I was told misery would come to me if I walked away from him. I don't know. I just wanted to live a life helping people that the rest of the world ignores. I am functional most of the time. But this burden of stress would make even normal people crack. If I can't do good in this world I don't want to be a burden to it. I'm really thinking of just putting an end to all this. If I lose my fight I lose it all.
Can you see your pdoc as well? Maybe he/she can give you something to help with the stress and axiety you are feeling.
Don't give up. It has to get better.
You walk and talk, type - your smart and blessed- you have a home, computer,,,,,
In times like this - I actually go back to look for gratitude - I'm grateful I didn't live 100 years ago, and thrown in asylum. I'm grateful modern medicine is getting better faster.
I can out list your doom - I have mileage and scars, and I still walk and talk - so many people can't do that! ((((BIG HUG)))))
Hold on and just do the NEXT RIGHT THING - not next weeks or years schedule, just what you are going to do in the next 10 minutes - don't go too far back, and don't go too far forward... if you want to list woes, at least give 5 minutes to listing things your grateful for!
We are here for you! Use us : )
Laura