I find that when i am alone I don't have a good sense of what to do with myself.

I start to fold in upon myself mentally or eat or drink and try and sooth myself.

Transitions from being with people to alone by myself can cause upheaval

and almost a new way of self regard - I can become whimpery and searching

for someone to assuage how I feel - I feel very scared to indulge a line of

activity as it feels vulnerable. I wish things were different.

I do have a job and I feel like it is good that I am productive like that

but it feels nearly like I should be doing more - or maybe just the incessant dissapointment with myself.