Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Looking back at journal entries and posts to groups, I have been dealing with my Bipolar 2 disorder for almost 10 years... which, in my book is a pretty long time.
Through all of the depression, anxiety and dark thoughts that have overcome my life i have been able to maintain dreams. Of course during my depressive episodes I am not dreaming, but when I am able to think about a future. A future that I want, but I dont tink that I can achieve. Since being diagonosed wth this disorder I have simply been treading water. I have accomplished nothing. I am almost 30 years old, still living at my mom's house, working in a semi-entry level position for a new and large corporation. I can't remember the last time I expirenced success, had the thrill of telling people what new about me or the desire to celebrate something new in life.
I spend my money on unnessesary things and don't seem to save for the future or a home of my own. My partnerships are disolved, becasue I cannot maintain them, or no not have the capacity to maintain them. I have not finished my education and really have nothing to show for the seven years I spent in higher ed. What and I doing? I used to have a job that provided mt a free apartment in the city. But, my partners, the management team pushed me into a detox and rehab program. How was I ever supposed to return to work there?
Maybe at some point I will explain all of this in my jornal, but right now I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING!!!
How am I supposed to grow, succeed? Go back to school? Get a real estate license?
I can't keep going at this pace. I feel as though I am simply wasting away...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
From what you've written you've accomplished a lot.... I agree thirty isn't old at all.... You can still reach for your dreams
Perhaps do things can take a little longer for us...
Big hug for you.... I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.... Feelings aren't reality though and I agree you've accomplished a lot...
Good for you getting into treatment ... People at your last job obviously cared a great deal about your wellbeing... How is it going now??
If you want to finish education maybe do it once course at a time
I would try not to put all of the things in life that bother you into one big melting pot as life then becomes a catastrophe that isn't at all manageable .....
What can you do today?... What would thing would you like to work on now?....Maybe open a savings account as an example....
You can make changes....One thing at a time... Big hug....xo
I'd love to go back to school to open my options. Maybe something online would suit me.
I love that people are responding to posts here. It really helps to hear from others!