Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Hello all,
here are some things I am deep in thought about:
Why is it that I am paranoid by the inevetable?
Will I ever find peace and Comfort?
Why do I try to fix everyone and take on their problems and ignore mine?
Those are questions I find hard to answer. I am not the type of person to just let things go. My anxitey and my PTSD make me soo paranoid, like there are things I can't control and I hate that with a passion. I guess I am a bit of a control freak... and I do like to play hero and try to save everyone. I know you are probably thinking "Kayla, How can you help other people when there is a never ending war inside of your head. You can't fix everyone." There is no safe place for me to be.. and I cant seem to grieve correctly. I know it is time for therapy 2 times a week again. Therapy and the medications cant fix me and I know this is a chemical inbalance in my brain, but I feel powerless, because I never know what side of me I am going to get. It is terrifying waking up everyday unable to control your mood or emotions.. and it comes in waves. My fiance is careful with what she says and does around me because she is scared it will set me off.
Welcome to the Shit Show I call my life guys.
-Kayla
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I've been on high dose prednisone for pneumonia, and now I am slowly weaning. But lots of symptoms I don't like having, plus overeating has put at least 10 lbs on me. The food is "loud" as the GLP-1 users refer to it.Also pressured speech. Which comes out in my posts. Sorry I posted so much. I just need an outlet for my agitated and irritable brain. Just scroll on by my posts, if they are too...
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Has anyone heard from Jenn, she had an adult son with aspergers, Eric, they lived a long time with her grandmother, then they moved into an apartment. She had a funny little picture if I recall of a short dark haird woman as part of her name in a red dress.There are so many people who have dropped away from this room...I wonder where they are, and miss them. Wishing that DS could become what it...
As for finding peace, that will come when 'you choose' to live your life Not Controlling, Not In Fear, and open your heart to love.
If you don't like yourself, then self care/self love is out of your reach. Purpose and Meaning in life is huge... helping others is a way to take yourself 'away from yourself and feel good about helping'.
One thing that can backfire is if you are giving advice, when not asked for, helping and doing, when not asked for, or maybe enabling which can be hurtful.
Your life can be good, it's all about choice and how you speak to yourself in your head...take good care~~