Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Chuggernaught 01/21/2008

I've noticed that there are two kinds of BPs...the ones who see suiicide as an option and the ones who don't. I find it interesting because someone I know who is BP is the later type, and they say the same thing as normal people "Stop your pity party.." And I can't seem to get it in there head that it's not a pity thing, it's checking down the options to my problems. I'm not afraid of pain and I'm not afraid of death. In fact I am quite curious about it, it's just that I'm also quite curious about alot of things in life too.. lol so does anyone know one of these and have you ever wrote out "the note" just to have in case?

deleted_user 01/21/2008

yes I have a note sitting on my desk right now as a matter of fact

deleted_user 01/21/2008

I have two almost grown boys and if it weren't for them, I would have a note. I won't do anything because/for of them. I feel like kids always need their parent, so here I am...

2Fast2KeepUP 01/21/2008

5, one to hubby, one to each child (3) and one to parents. I keep them in my bible so I think twice before I make a final decision.

deleted_user 01/21/2008

wrote a note and got a involuntary committal!

dobiedots 01/21/2008

I'm a "spontaneous suicidal". I never plan it ahead of time.
Plus I have a lot of anger when I reach that point. So I've never had a note. I want them to wonder for the rest of their lives why I did it and if it was their fault.
(ok, it's mean, so sue me)

deleted_user 01/21/2008

no note... what would i say... i suppose my poetry would be my "note"

Chuggernaught 01/21/2008

lol I have anger issues too... But I seem to care too much about how people feel so I would explain and try to console everyone.

deleted_user 01/21/2008

i've written a note before (actually it was more like a will written for each individual person i'm close to)....i can't say if i ever planned to use it though, i think just writing it out actually helped me not do it if that made any sense...

also, if you know someone who says they are BP but then has no understanding as to why someone else with BP might be having a hard time or feel suicidal....then i would say possibly that person is either not truly BP themselves, or just severely lacking in empathy

Chuggernaught 01/21/2008

Starvingartist yes that makes perfect sense to me. I did the same thing. As far as this person goes, there is no doubt in my mind they are BP, but they seem to have been mostly Dysphoric manic there whole lives so I don't think they were plagued with the thoughts of Suicide much.

deleted_user 01/21/2008

i dont have anite.i have considered writting a note though,i just wouldnt b sure what 2 write in it as when im in the frmae of mind of the note i feel 2 angry and upset 2 care 4 family members.thats bad i know!

deleted_user 01/21/2008

Over the years I've wrote many "notes". However, as of late I figure what's the point in witting one. Everyone knows how I feel without one.

deleted_user 01/21/2008

In 2003, before dx, I wrote a "note" before I got on a plane for a work-related trip that I didn't think I would return from. I was having delusional thoughts and was paranoid. Totally unaware of my dx and why I was feeling the way I did.

Love,
Wendy

deleted_user 01/21/2008

Storm I have had three family members over the years who was successful and none of them left notes. All three shot themselves also.

deleted_user 01/21/2008

chug, that could make it harder for the person to understand sever crippling depression, and how for some it is not about feeling sorry for themselves and more about pain relief

also, many BPs also have comorbid personality disorders that can make empathizing more difficult

Chuggernaught 01/21/2008

I think maybe because when you write the note, you are reminding your self why you should stay.

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