Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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And I can think more clearly, mood is more stable and then reality sets in.......
It's happening to me today.....the blinders are up, seeing more clear and than I start to think of the episodes I've had....what I can remember of them anyway. The job that I once had and lost due to the illness and not being able to get "stable" enough fast enough to keep working. It makes me feel like such a damn loser ya know?
And then I find myself sitting here wondering what the hell am I supposed to do now.....what am I supposed to be doing with my life now that I am more stable but still unable to hold down a job because I have no stress filters left....if that makes any sense. I don't handle stress and changes well at all these days. Doesn't take much to rattle my world in other world.....so my days of working as a nurse are over.
Feels like I'm mourning a life lost and I don't know what I am supposed to be doing now with the life I do have. Thanks for reading....hope I didn't depress anyone. I'm at a total loss here and looking for some answers....anybody have some??
It's happening to me today.....the blinders are up, seeing more clear and than I start to think of the episodes I've had....what I can remember of them anyway. The job that I once had and lost due to the illness and not being able to get "stable" enough fast enough to keep working. It makes me feel like such a damn loser ya know?
And then I find myself sitting here wondering what the hell am I supposed to do now.....what am I supposed to be doing with my life now that I am more stable but still unable to hold down a job because I have no stress filters left....if that makes any sense. I don't handle stress and changes well at all these days. Doesn't take much to rattle my world in other world.....so my days of working as a nurse are over.
Feels like I'm mourning a life lost and I don't know what I am supposed to be doing now with the life I do have. Thanks for reading....hope I didn't depress anyone. I'm at a total loss here and looking for some answers....anybody have some??
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
Sorry you're having a tough time now.. Take care of you.. wishing you the best...
I find I need to extract myself with what was.. I think in my mind sometimes I see the past as better then it really was.. i used to really like nursing but I know in the last couple of years I was really struggling and it'd become such a burden... I took so much sick time and I wasn't doing well at work at all..
Sometimes when I look back now though I can delude myself into thinking it was the perfect thing for me
You do amazing work!!!.. You are so talented..
The only thing that works for me is to continue to look forward...I still reflect on what was at times but I don't allow myself to stay there..
If I start to let it upset me I do something to divert my thoughts.. a walk.. cook... Gratitude has probably helped me more then anything else... If I can count blessings then I always know that there's a lot of good in life
Great big hug for ya sista...xoxo
For me I've been struggling to make my own art projects, my own little microcosm of meaning. It has been slow and arduous but maybe I'm making a little headway.
I too get easily rattled, I don't really think I've ever been stable, still searching for stablization.
So, too here I am. Now what?
And by the way, I love and respect every one of you. You are a special breed.
So, Nurse Tatty-Tat your days of nursing may be over. But, your days of being a nurse will never end.
Feeling a little better today, I think.....trying my best to get over this hump here.
My son is driving me nuts with his anxiety, things are just really getting to me lately and it's catching up here!!