is it just me or does this go through everyone else's mind constantly? I usually shake it off and focus on something good or tell myself that its ok , because i don't want to burden everyone else with my death. Its ok to think about as long as you don't act right? not just me there?? I feel like i'm starting to accept that im gonna go young , I really don't wanna think this way but it hurts so much more to get up and be alive then the one time pain of dying could possibly feel. Not that I'm gonna do it-i just seem to find myself thinking about it a lot lately and it kind of worries me. 'm sorry i'm ranting on here, i really don't have anyon to talk to and i don't want to go to the hospital b/c im sure this time tomorrow ill probably have a different perspective on things but its the now that hurts so bad. I wanna shut my eyes and let forever take me away.
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