Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Hi ya'll,
I have been having this thought for most of this year. The thought that I am getting stupider from meds? age? dissociation? depression? insomnia? I don't know, I just know I want my brain to be BETTER THAN EVERYONE IN THE WORLD! I couldn't write a sentence yesterday because I couldn't remember how to spell words. When I "think" I have been given the wrong change, I no longer question the clerk because it's usually me making the mistake. I go to the kitchen and can't find the quacamole knowing full well there is freaking quacamole in the kitchen. Still haven't found it. I lose words in the middle of sentences, can't find the shoes I want, forget to eat and am a disorganized mess. Like, where did all this laundry come from!? I just did it (when did I do it) (oh, yeah, about six months ago).
On the outside, I just laugh it off (Goofy strikes again) or blame it on my husband (You know you ate the quacamole). On the inside, it is really bothering me. I'm losing my confidence.
Is this a normal part of aging to lose your confidence? Did my brain chemicals finally burn all my brain cells? Should I just accept this is the new me and live with it?
And, to top it all off, I just wrote this long sob story and it disappeared right before my eyes. Typical.
What do you think? If I really am going stupid, I want to make the most of it and just play all day. No more responsibility for Dummy.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Yea, the lessons in humility delivered allot dings to my self-confidence, but, in my personal herstory, I think the rebuilt, more humble self-confidence is an improvement over arrogance of the control freak I was.
Just my take on my strictly personal case. . . I'm not ruling out the possibility that I am *just* too far gone to see how many of my brain cells are already dead.
Yeah, kisses, welcome to my world. You don't happen to know where my blue shorts are do you?
Thanks for the laugh, ladies. That always seems to help.
The biggest thing for me I think is words.... I lose words and it'll take me a day to find it
AND I forget what people tell me or stories.... They're in and out.... Just gone.....sigh
Bloody Hell!!!!....... Big squishy hug.....xo
No, it will come to me.
Ok, yes. Oh. No. Hamsters?
Like I ever had control to begin with. . . The list of things I can control was one of the piles of bullshit I had to unlearn.
Yes, Fish, it was the hamsters what ate your lunch and probably the quac too.
Personally I use Luminosity and Cognifit daily. I've always used these kinds of things at the end of the day since I was in University because my mind spins like a damn Hamster Wheel and doing these repetitive, focused exercises helps it slow down, so I can go to sleep at night.
But they are made to strengthen your cognitive ability....a gym for your brain muscle!
Take care,
Kat
Two years ago, my memory was so bad, I could not remember my own name. I was supposed to take a second semester of 2nd year Master's level Koine Greek. I realized I would not be able to do it. Then my husband mentioned "my snoring" was bothering him and waking him up. So, I did a test, and I was basically not breathing properly all night long. When I started wearing the CPAP I was able to get an A on the Greek course, and this year I did second year German and got A's.
Learning a language is just a tangible representation of being able to remember things. Yes, the meds can really affect our minds. But, it is possible to recover, if all the other factors are mitigated. Particularly if you are older.
One warning: Topamax. Totally lost all memories for the 3 years I was on it. Terrible drug, and really didn't help my bipolar although I did lose a lot of weight on it.
Drugs affect people different ways, we all experience different side effects. People saying specific drugs are terrible may keep someone from trying that drug that might be the one that actually helps them.
Topomax is an adjunct drug for BiPolar...it's not made for BiPolar.