My depression has kicked in. Either not sleeping at all or sleeping for days. Trying to eat but its a struggle. My head is spiralling out and i find myself thinking about very dark thoughts. Suicide has crept into my head. I havent acted on these thoughts but they are definitly there. Im finding everyday tasks overwhelming, things like washing and doing the dishes are extremely difficult for me right now. Im just trying to get through the hours. Take every breath as it comes but its difficult. I feel like im drowning in my sadness. Unable to breath due to the pressure i feel right now. Im shaking and crying all the time. Im not living im surviving and its getting too much.