I feel angry too from time to time. It comes and goes, probably depending on my symptoms. I can't give you any advice about moving past it, but I can say that you're not alone. And I have a feeling this is not so uncommon.

Feelings of anger are valid , in my opinion.

The feeling that your life has an uncontrollable force ....well , that is totally frustrating and causes a lot of anger.

I go through periods where I feel like I have made my peace with being bipolar...that I will never be the same vivacious person I once was..... and then I get angry all over again, when I feel the limitations my life has.

Maybe eventually we do get over the feelings of anger and frustration ?

I don't know the answer to that one

I really do understand how you feel however, we just simply can't live with could of's you can only live in the present, & do your best to stay positive.

All the best to you
Hugs

I have the opposite problem: I can't get angry and, apparently, when I do, I look like a fool so nobody takes me seriously. I don't know how to yell at somebody, cuss and scream. My husband raises his voice and it scares the shit out of me. I don't know which is more common - your problem or mine - but as my Pdoc would say, "there's a pill for that".

I'm not angry, more afraid. I'm afraid that this is all there is and it won't get any better.

Sigh. I feel anger at times about this dumb illness. Like when I waste a day because my social anxiety and/or paranoia and/or lack of confidence due to my bipolar reservations. It's like I can't get over the hump of feeling worthless. I work on this in therapy allllll the time and I'm good for a few weeks and then something will happen at work where I realize I'm not like others and get taken advantage of because of my fragility and Fear.

Still I keep on truckin. And find hope in bipolar peers that I'm not alone.


((((((Hugs)))))))

I get angry at it too. When it interferes in my life, preventing me from doing things I want to do, or convincing me that life is pointless and that I should end it all.
I think it's a natural reaction to any illness. I was angry when I had cancer and that interrupted my life for 4 years.
I try to do the best I can. I don't dwell on missed opportunities. This illness WILL always interfere in my life. I try to go with the flow.
Anger is a big waste of energy and it will ruin your day or week or life.

I'm embarrassed to say that 2 weeks ago I was in the hospital for a week. I spent a day in half in the hospital. A week in a pysch ward first time ever. I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 about 2 months ago. I've know since my early twenties that I have bipolar disorder or schizophrenia. Years no meds and successful in my day life, career,forgiving family for childhood issues. Living peaceful, I'm.not saying I'm not peaceful now. But my psychiatrist nurse where the official diagnosis carne from gave me lithium, klonopin, lamotrigine seroquel. My lithium levels were 1.6 I almost died. Because I thought if I take more I will get better. I'm in.shock still I was there. But learned take what she says. I refuse lithium and klonopin. Done and done. Now I'm on seroquel and lamotrigine. Every time I see her she raised my meds. However, I'm to blame for the accidental overdose. I'm at peace I made mistake. I will be ok this is apart of me. That's ok. I will forever take my meds accordingly.

Well at least I see I'm not alone, though I hate it has to be that way. I figured after all these years I'd accept it...but it continues to twist my thoughts and feelings and magnifies the negative. Over time it has changed..maybe thats part of it. Gone are the days on end of high energy and creativity now I end up with anger/rage but not as much as before. Its like a dull ache that will never go away with occassional painful spikes.

spacecat- I hate someone to raise their voice to me..makes me want . to hide...doesn't make sense.

ladybug-Im sick of meds. period. Tired of needing anything. Klonopin ugh. try getting off that it is awful. the right med has always been a challenge...eben blood pressure meds. Just get tired of fighting

guess I was just feeling stupid that I hadn't accepted it. thanks for the thoughts!

Ya know I think that anytime anyone has some terrible disease or affliction they wonder why me? I get pissed off that I have bipolar but I also get pissed off that I have a weight problem. I feel I am judged more on my weight obviously bc people can see it. But for those who know of my BP its like a double whammy. Im not only someone who cant control her weight I am also mental as well. It sucks but I guess maybe I have accepted the BP. I will never accept the weight which is why I am working so hard to lose it.

I have bipolar II so I battle deep depression or I talk way too much. Acceptance was hardest for me when I lost my job after trying so hard to hide symptoms & when I realized that so much alone time was necessary that I will live the rest of my life without a mate. The last one couldn't take the sadness that had nothing to do with him. So, yes, I get angry but not as much as I used to. Sometimes, usually when driving, I will have a good cry about what I have lost but mostly I just have to rely on my faith. No, I won't get all churchy on you but I believe one day we will all be well - no more sadness or tears or pain. But some days He's got some 'splainin' to do!
Wish you the best,
dj
www.myinvisiblenoise.blogspot.com

Know exactly how you feel, relate to your post very much. Good luck.

Anger is a healthy human emotion.

I find my anger is often driven by another healthy human emotion:

Fear.

What is the worst that will happen if you let this one thing go?

I hope you find some help in the answer.

Xx,
beep.

I understand your anger. I think I have written a post about it here too.
At times it's harder to accept the life that bipolar serves up. Sometimes
I am better at accepting it - but I don't rejoice in it ever.
I think at times when I feel angry I do look to try and be grateful. I also try to exercise or contact someone I can vent to.
I am glad you're going to have therapy - but maybe, since it doesn't start for a month or so, maybe this is a good opportunity to try and develop some coping skills (so you can mange with or without therapy.) My thing is that I keep on aspiring to be self sufficient when it comes to my ailment. I am grateful for the support group here - and for the NAMI meetings but I want to have the time and ability to share with people outside of bp. It's good you reached out. Peace, Mark

beepeep struck a nerve with me and its true...the source of the anger is largely fear...I have alot of fear of going through life and not being able to do things. I don't know why its so important to me to do certain things. If I can just keep purpose and meaning I think I'd be ok. I pretty much just saw my MIL die in May at 51 because she lost all hope and meaning. I don't want that!

itsjustdj..hows that saying..the REM song..feels like I'm losing my religion. feels like I'm losing faith msg me I'll explain. Thanks everyone.A soft place to fall (and hopefully get back up)