Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
and some days can feel so out of sync it's totally unbelievable to me, the difference in a day....an hour even in a few minutes. I don't like this one bit but I have no choice than to bite the damn bullet once again.
Damn why does it have to be like this, total inner restlessness but tired beyond belief?? What did I do that was so wrong in a past life to deserve all this utter bullshit now?? I'm very sad, my energy level is just gone out the window on me.
So tired of waiting for these mood shifts to pass.....christ I wait and wait....and time goes by, precious time that I will never get back. Time I could be spending with my son doing something constructive, something worth something but I can't keep the tears away long enough and I am too busy trying to hide so he doesn't see me like this.
I feel like I'm losing my mind tonight.....I haven't felt this alone in a very long, long time. This isn't good, not good at all.....
Damn why does it have to be like this, total inner restlessness but tired beyond belief?? What did I do that was so wrong in a past life to deserve all this utter bullshit now?? I'm very sad, my energy level is just gone out the window on me.
So tired of waiting for these mood shifts to pass.....christ I wait and wait....and time goes by, precious time that I will never get back. Time I could be spending with my son doing something constructive, something worth something but I can't keep the tears away long enough and I am too busy trying to hide so he doesn't see me like this.
I feel like I'm losing my mind tonight.....I haven't felt this alone in a very long, long time. This isn't good, not good at all.....
I'm sorry your son wasn't successful finding work. I know it has become more and more restrictive to hire young people here on the farm. No one under 18 can run any equipment. About the only thing they could do is sweep the shop floor. Those rules don't apply to kin so the Babys were on tractors since they were 12 and litter patrol from about age 8.
Our local high school's student services center receives notices of employment so that might be a resource for your son next year. He needs to get on it early (like January).
I understand your extra motivation for helping him. You're a great mom. :)