Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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kryslalee 09/01/2011

My new P-doc isn't convinced that I have bipolar disorder at all. He says my many meds have caused problems and changes in my body that may mimic bipolar disorder, but he doubts (from my narrative) that I am actually having fullblown manic episodes. So now what? What if he's right? It has taken years to accept this condition, and the possibilityof it all being a lie completely overwhelms me. He is thinking I may even have brain lesions causing my unusual auditory and visual hallucinations. I am so confused. We are doing lab work and working on lowering/ eliminating some of the medicines, but honestly I am scared. IF i don't have bipolar disorder, does that make me just plain crazy? Will this change my ADD diagnosis too? I am just confused and scared. Any advice?

Krysla

hotdogalice 09/01/2011

i understand your worry....I too was told that medicines for years had messed me up and was taken off everything.....I am glad for you that they are looking into the main cause...please keep us posted
best of luck.....message me if you need support...I understand

SwordDancer 09/01/2011

Have you researched brain lesions? I suggest you do so to see if any of the symptoms are familiar to you. Doctors can be wrong sometimes, either way.

blastwithpiss 09/01/2011

That would worry me too. I'm sorry. I don't really know what to say other than I hope they get things sorted out. Brain lesions sounds real scary, I hope you don't have it.

deleted_user 09/01/2011

i not sure but i guess i would be hoping for bp over the rest but if it is something they can fit then you wioll be healed and not need to go throught it anymore as hard as it is try to hope for the best and as much as it has defined you you can still start over again the fresh start may help

deleted_user 09/01/2011

well... one thing is your not what they call "normal" and thats awesome cause they dont know what "normal" is still.. so thats a good thing to not worry about! HA! :) Smile! Everything will be just fine! Like I have said in the past.. BPD and BP are so much alike and meds wouldnt do anything for someone whos suffering from BPD like they would for someone whos got BP.. they are a like miss dx cause they are so much alike. *hugs* everything will be fine!

kryslalee 09/01/2011

Update: Doc actually called me because my thiamine is low, and had me start a supplement. That can cause, among other things, fatigue. So maybe I will feel a little better in a few days. We will see. Doc squeezed me in for the 7th, and said go to ER if things get too bad. So I will be watchful. Thanks for all of the replies. I am researching brain lesions and Bipolar Disorder so I can learn more, but it is a busy day with kid stuff going on. But busy is good! More later...

deleted_user 09/01/2011

Keep in mind that there's no such thing as "just plain crazy". Everything has a name and a reason and there is research behind everything with the way it works in the brain and the medications that can supplement exactly what it is that causes the problems: chemical imbalances in the brain. It's difficult to find the right combination, no matter what.

Don't let the fear overwhelm you! No matter what the issue ends up being, you've worked up coping skills over the years to deal with the symptoms that are giving you trouble. It really only matters what the cause is so that the docs can treat you, so if your symptoms are still similar to those of bipolar, you still can use everything you've worked to accept it, and it's not as much of a fallback as it sounds.

Good Luck! Keep us posted!

deleted_user 09/01/2011

I am sorry that you are going through this. The uncertainty would be worrisome to most including me. Please, keep us posted.

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