How long have you felt this way?

Maybee your in the middle of a mixed episode.

I def am in a mixed state...it's been getting worse and worse over the past few weeks.

Have you talked with your pdoc?

Is your pdoc recomending hospital or do you just feel you need to go?

Hanna, I am sorry you are stuggling sweetie. As lucky said, have you called your pdoc. I am thinking you said you didnt have one right now? In that case, maybe a family doc? If you cant, you will have to go to the hospital. You are dangerous to both you and your children not knowing what you will do. Can you call family to come help you? Someone to stay with you till tomorrow?

As of this morning, the tdoc and pdoc wanted me in partial. But things have taken a real toll for the worse over the rest of the day. I'm not sure I'm safe...but I don't think I can go to the hospital even if I wanted to b/c of daycare issues.

You have no sisters or brothers that can watch the kids.Or other family members.

is there anyone hanna that can babysit the kids and get them to and from daycare?
if your insides are telling you it is the safest thing to do, then i would ask any of your friends if they can house-sit for a while.
i'm really sorry you're feeling like this. i think you were really smart to post about it, and get some opinions. :)

Everyone is in financial distress. No one has even enough gas money to come to my house. Sad but true. I loaned my last $5 to my mother 2 days ago for gas....and my sister not only has a baby, but asked me to borrow gas money today too.

Right now if you're not sure you're safe for yourself, you're probably not safe for your kids either because you can't properly care for them in an extremely severe mixed state. Please, find a friend or a relative who can take them while you check yourself in because it sounds like partial hospitalization isn't the answer at this point. Please sweetie keep us posted.

l'm wondering if you had to go into hospital if there is a welfare fund that your mum could be eligable for while looking after your children as a carer maybe. l would make an appointment to see your Dr's and ask them for help explain your situation, if you can't see them soon then phone them.

Thanks everyone. I've taken enough meds to fall asleep...so I'll do that and hopefully it'll be a better tomorrow. thanks again!

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Sleep peaceful Hanna, talk to us tomorrow sweetheart.

(((((((Hugs))))))))) We are here for you sweetie, let us know if you need us. xo

Sweet dreams Hanahanna. I hope you have a better day tomorrow.

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