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I haven't been feeling the best and last night I came very close to attempting suicide again. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I had to be at work in the next hour and that wasn't enough time for me to actually die. I called in and took the day off to think about it. I've been trying so hard to give off happy and healthy vibes to my family and I don't want them to worry or get upset. I don't want to disappoint them anymore.
Not only that but what if I get fired? My job can't hold my position forever. Maybe I should get fired, after all I fucking blow at my job so maybe it is best to give it up to someone who is actually worth a damn.
Plus one of my friends, whom I met in the hospital, recently went back in and was discharged the other day. What if my friends think I'm doing it for attention and get mad at me?
My therapist suggested I go back when I saw her yesterday but she also encouraged me to stay out until the 21st when I see my NP to discuss a med change.
Not only that but what if I get fired? My job can't hold my position forever. Maybe I should get fired, after all I fucking blow at my job so maybe it is best to give it up to someone who is actually worth a damn.
Plus one of my friends, whom I met in the hospital, recently went back in and was discharged the other day. What if my friends think I'm doing it for attention and get mad at me?
My therapist suggested I go back when I saw her yesterday but she also encouraged me to stay out until the 21st when I see my NP to discuss a med change.
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I've been on high dose prednisone for pneumonia, and now I am slowly weaning. But lots of symptoms I don't like having, plus overeating has put at least 10 lbs on me. The food is "loud" as the GLP-1 users refer to it.Also pressured speech. Which comes out in my posts. Sorry I posted so much. I just need an outlet for my agitated and irritable brain. Just scroll on by my posts, if they are too...
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I've used negtative-thought- stopping to fight suicidal ideation and it has worked for me.
http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/positive-thinking-stopping-unwanted-thoughts
I got a quote from an old movie that "if something is worth dying for then it's worth living for." Try to maintain. The med change sounds promising.
i'm really sorry you're struggling so badly. i hope you do go get it sorted out with professional help. your deep sense of depression is palatable in your words, and i hope you can get it beaten.
And if your friends think you're doing it for attention/get mad at you they probably aren't very good friends...
Yes it sounds like in patient is a good idea....
You will def. disappoint your family if you do it. And your friends. What a horrible thing you will bring on them.
Please....go in or at the very least talk to your pdoc right away.
Depression clouds our thinking....you think you're not worth it, people don't really care about you. NOT TRUE-it's the depression talking.
(((((((Hugs)))))) to you sweetie....and DON'T DO IT. It's not a solution.