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I haven't been feeling the best and last night I came very close to attempting suicide again. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I had to be at work in the next hour and that wasn't enough time for me to actually die. I called in and took the day off to think about it. I've been trying so hard to give off happy and healthy vibes to my family and I don't want them to worry or get upset. I don't want to disappoint them anymore.
Not only that but what if I get fired? My job can't hold my position forever. Maybe I should get fired, after all I fucking blow at my job so maybe it is best to give it up to someone who is actually worth a damn.
Plus one of my friends, whom I met in the hospital, recently went back in and was discharged the other day. What if my friends think I'm doing it for attention and get mad at me?
My therapist suggested I go back when I saw her yesterday but she also encouraged me to stay out until the 21st when I see my NP to discuss a med change.
Not only that but what if I get fired? My job can't hold my position forever. Maybe I should get fired, after all I fucking blow at my job so maybe it is best to give it up to someone who is actually worth a damn.
Plus one of my friends, whom I met in the hospital, recently went back in and was discharged the other day. What if my friends think I'm doing it for attention and get mad at me?
My therapist suggested I go back when I saw her yesterday but she also encouraged me to stay out until the 21st when I see my NP to discuss a med change.
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Lets make ot a good beginning to the weekHow can we start the day off on a positive note!I have several chores planned that I have been putting off but I'm determined to accomplish todaySo I'm feel grateful for accomplishmentsI hope that you all have a fabulous week!!Sending hugs...xo
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You may recall I write that my sister and he husband were in an affair with my brothers wife. It's been almost a year. Mom last week asked me to invite my sisters boys to a birthday at my house for my brothers daughter. I was on my way to pick up the boys when my mom called and told me to turn around. Apparently my brother didn't know my nephews were coming and he was livid. I came home to a...
I've used negtative-thought- stopping to fight suicidal ideation and it has worked for me.
http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/positive-thinking-stopping-unwanted-thoughts
I got a quote from an old movie that "if something is worth dying for then it's worth living for." Try to maintain. The med change sounds promising.
i'm really sorry you're struggling so badly. i hope you do go get it sorted out with professional help. your deep sense of depression is palatable in your words, and i hope you can get it beaten.
And if your friends think you're doing it for attention/get mad at you they probably aren't very good friends...
Yes it sounds like in patient is a good idea....
You will def. disappoint your family if you do it. And your friends. What a horrible thing you will bring on them.
Please....go in or at the very least talk to your pdoc right away.
Depression clouds our thinking....you think you're not worth it, people don't really care about you. NOT TRUE-it's the depression talking.
(((((((Hugs)))))) to you sweetie....and DON'T DO IT. It's not a solution.