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Do you ever like... become obsessed with one thing, then the next day/week/month/year something entirely else????????
2 years ago I got a couple pairs of these absolutely gorgeous Vivienne Westwood coloured pvc wedges, and loved shoes. Idk. I feel like it kind of messes with my agender cred because it's "such a girl thing" Idk but who really cares right???
Anyway I stopped giving a flip about shoes after that and haven't for at least a year, probably more. Recently it was perfume and fragrance. I might be getting some money soon I dunno? I was planning to buy some perfume. I mean, pretty expensive shit, in general, and the ones I was looking at, because I'm incredibly picky.
I went out to a restaurant (Dave and Busters to be precise) with my friend and his friends and sisters for his birthday, and I wore my 6 inch ish stilettos and... towered over everybody? I walked into the crowded game and arcade room which was HUGE (this was the one at the state mall) to use the bathroom because it was in there (also huge)- and I towered over EVERYBODY. Especially other females. I was like "What the fuuuuuuuck?" because it's typically the opposite, I'm just a little bitty shrimp in a sea of tall goddesses.
But I felt like a giantess, some kind of fantasy creature goddess, and I was drunk on this power. I then remembered it was the stilettos, which also looked gigantic on my itty bitty feet. I kind of had this moment and now suddenly I care about them, and haven't thought about wearing or buying perfume at all hahahaha.
Oh my god I dread to think if I got a weekly or monthly paycheck. The cheap wad in me who grew up poor and is still mentally poor regardless of current situation cannot justify blowing loads of cash on any one thing, but my impulsive drunk-on-power bipolar self has before.... and will again, I'm sure.
Oh well. Guess I can't complain. It's pretty cool to be so momentarily overcome. Some say money is a shallow thing, things are a shallow thing, but.... they can't hurt you, or let you down, and right now my trust is wounded. Lol.
Anyone else experience similar shopping compulsions?????
I used to have impulses for lingerie also loooooool. Not my thing right now though.
On an off note I think I'm getting a slight improvement from the Zyprexa.
2 years ago I got a couple pairs of these absolutely gorgeous Vivienne Westwood coloured pvc wedges, and loved shoes. Idk. I feel like it kind of messes with my agender cred because it's "such a girl thing" Idk but who really cares right???
Anyway I stopped giving a flip about shoes after that and haven't for at least a year, probably more. Recently it was perfume and fragrance. I might be getting some money soon I dunno? I was planning to buy some perfume. I mean, pretty expensive shit, in general, and the ones I was looking at, because I'm incredibly picky.
I went out to a restaurant (Dave and Busters to be precise) with my friend and his friends and sisters for his birthday, and I wore my 6 inch ish stilettos and... towered over everybody? I walked into the crowded game and arcade room which was HUGE (this was the one at the state mall) to use the bathroom because it was in there (also huge)- and I towered over EVERYBODY. Especially other females. I was like "What the fuuuuuuuck?" because it's typically the opposite, I'm just a little bitty shrimp in a sea of tall goddesses.
But I felt like a giantess, some kind of fantasy creature goddess, and I was drunk on this power. I then remembered it was the stilettos, which also looked gigantic on my itty bitty feet. I kind of had this moment and now suddenly I care about them, and haven't thought about wearing or buying perfume at all hahahaha.
Oh my god I dread to think if I got a weekly or monthly paycheck. The cheap wad in me who grew up poor and is still mentally poor regardless of current situation cannot justify blowing loads of cash on any one thing, but my impulsive drunk-on-power bipolar self has before.... and will again, I'm sure.
Oh well. Guess I can't complain. It's pretty cool to be so momentarily overcome. Some say money is a shallow thing, things are a shallow thing, but.... they can't hurt you, or let you down, and right now my trust is wounded. Lol.
Anyone else experience similar shopping compulsions?????
I used to have impulses for lingerie also loooooool. Not my thing right now though.
On an off note I think I'm getting a slight improvement from the Zyprexa.
PLUS THEY'RE CHEAPER. 4 pairs of them cost the same as the 2 pairs of Viviennes I currently own and have for years...... which....
Are the exact same shoe in two different colours. Ughhhhhhhh.
And my two most expensive bras are the exact same one in two different colours. xD
Is there like a word for this particular kind of obsession?
If you're not already diagnosed as OCD or don't wanna be, I wouldn't worry about it honestly. I have been told I have minor ocd, but I also hoard obsessively and compulsively, but it's kept at a minimum by living with others.
I have other of these too.
But I've noticed buying the same item in 10 colours in others too without ocd. I guess it's just "one of those things" haha. Somehow it's more satisfying to walk away with a "collection" of similar things than 10 various unrelated items, even if they are of the same interest or value. Weird. Lol. Then again I think we're all a little weird here if I can say so [; heh.