Welcome! I agree - I tend to not discuss my bp troubles with very many people and prefer the peer support instead.

i try often to talk to my friends and family to no avail. they try but just cant understand and it usually becomes an edjucation lesson for them which at that moment i really dont have the strength for so its a half ass unexplained lesson at best and they still dont understand or they get frustrated with me so here i am

I'm on a simular journey like yourself. I had a mixed episode two weeks again and luckily I could pull forward and have an electro-convulsive therapy performed on me. My next ECT was not till 13 Jul so put one in the middle of the month helped me out. I am now on a three week rotation.

Hi and Welcome! yes, teaching lessons are hard...what I find more challenging though is if I Change A Behavior, not easy, more times than not, my efforts will not be seen....once a spot, always a spot no matter how many washings.

Today, after being shut down by a family member, I wrote the following:
"I've decided to shave my head. Cuz when people see people with shaved heads, their immediate gut reaction is sympathy and empathy. (I've had cancer, so don't take offense.) I've decided to wear a Dexcom (a blood sugar monitor). Cuz when diabetics have low blood sugar and act unbecomingly or aggressively, they are met with understanding and support as their loved ones understand how horribly the person feels when they are once again balanced. This bipolar thing...., when I lose my mind...it's met with walls and demands for better boundaries and behaviors. When I have no where to turn except to looking for a way out...isn't that the time that I can hope that it will be met with the understanding that my brain is having "low sugar" or I'm going through " chemo" and I just can't take it anymore? People with chronic illness cannot separate themselves from their illness or their symptoms. Just as much as you didn't sign up for this, I didn't either. I am learning to have more compassion people who act out, knowing that there is most likely an underlying cause. Hopefully I will keep learning that lesson as I hope that people will also learn that about me. Not justifying...not angry....just food for thought."

Welcome to the board here..... This is a good place to come... I'm glad that you've found us!!

I'm sorry that you were shutdown tootired.... Interesting concept.... Please let us know how it goes.... Big hugs all around....xo

I understand that one! No matter how hard they try they just can't fully comprehend.

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thank you everybody for the warm welcomes

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