After feeling like committing suicide the last few days, I took my full dose of Lamictal Last night, I slept like a baby, and I woke up feeling so much better. But I know that I had to go see Dr. ratchet because this is not good. So here’s how my day went. I got up trying to go start my car and it was dead. I had left my light on on Saturday and my battery went dead.  It was like 14 below this morning. So then once I got my car started, I called Dr. ratchets office. I spoke to nurse ratchet, and she tried to say that there were no appointments available today. I turned on the bitch mode. And they were able to get me in at 11 o’clock. So here’s what happened at my appointment. I told my doctor exactly how bad things have been the last few days. He told me he doesn’t understand why I had such a horrible reaction to stopping the lamictal.  I just really had a hard time not laughing at him. I told him I took my full dose last night and he got very angry with me and pretty much told me that if I didn’t stop this he wouldn’t see me anymore. So he increased my lithium, and is having me take 50 mg of the LAMICTAL For two weeks, and also prescribed Prozac for a week to help with the serotonin withdrawal syndrome. He said he doesn’t understand why I am having such a hard time with this. He said “on “you must be very sensitive to medications “”   well no shizzle.. he also said that if I start having with drawl symptoms immediately after I stop the Prozac, that something else must be going on. He said that the half-life of Prozac is a very long time. So if I go three days after stopping the Prozac, and with drawl symptoms came back that it was probably still with drawl. He seems to think that it’s just my anxiety causing me these problems. I don’t know where this guy got his medical license ??  I just I feel so exhausted mentally. And I told him that I REFUSE to go back to the ER and  that I have been through partial hospitalization before, and it’s pretty much a joke. I said to him that he doesn’t understand something. I am all alone. I have no support financially mentally physically or any of it. I just started a new job, and if I lose my job, I lose my apartment, and I’m screwed. And I told him I do not want That to happen, I finally find a job where the people are decent the work is manageable and the pay is halfway decent. I cannot screw this up. So, that is where I’m at right now. I just want to thank everybody for helping me and being here for me. It has really meant a lot, and I hope that when I feel better, I can return the favor to everyone.