Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I'm an addict, and I have been really badly triggered lately.
I believe all of this is being caused by some unfelt feelings I have concerning my diagnoses. I think that I have a lot of sadness over being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have a very difficult time feeling sadness, instead of feeling it I will cover it up with anger or numb myself to it with my addictions.
I feel sad, because I now have to be on medication for the rest of my life.
I feel sad, because now I have yet another label, something else that separates me from all the "regular" people (whatever regular is) who don't have to deal with stuff like this.
I feel sad, because now I can't tell when something has to do with me or the disorder. Where do I end and the disorder begin?
I feel sad, because so much of my life for the last two years has been so fucked up because of this disorder. Yes its good that I am on meds now, but that doesn't change the past or the feelings
I feel sad, because of all the ways I have hurt people and could end up hurting people in the future. I am terrified of a manic episode because I struggle with hypersexuality while manic and I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend. He doesn't deserve that.
I was able to cry a little about this earlier today.. I wish I could cry again. I need it.
What makes you sad about your bipolar?
I believe all of this is being caused by some unfelt feelings I have concerning my diagnoses. I think that I have a lot of sadness over being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have a very difficult time feeling sadness, instead of feeling it I will cover it up with anger or numb myself to it with my addictions.
I feel sad, because I now have to be on medication for the rest of my life.
I feel sad, because now I have yet another label, something else that separates me from all the "regular" people (whatever regular is) who don't have to deal with stuff like this.
I feel sad, because now I can't tell when something has to do with me or the disorder. Where do I end and the disorder begin?
I feel sad, because so much of my life for the last two years has been so fucked up because of this disorder. Yes its good that I am on meds now, but that doesn't change the past or the feelings
I feel sad, because of all the ways I have hurt people and could end up hurting people in the future. I am terrified of a manic episode because I struggle with hypersexuality while manic and I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend. He doesn't deserve that.
I was able to cry a little about this earlier today.. I wish I could cry again. I need it.
What makes you sad about your bipolar?
I was really sad when I got my diagnosis. I actually didn't "believe" it. Didn't want the label. I was Hypomanic at the time so nothing could touch me and I knew it all, who were they to put labels on being perfect?! Right? ha. I also struggle with my addictions. I recently started back into AA. It's been a year and a half since I was last in those rooms but I know how out of control my life gets with Bipolar and Alcoholism, it's a mess and not who I am inside, so why be that way? Anyway, I was sad about taking the meds forever too, I went on and off a lot of different ones for a while, but each time I went off, I would slide into that nasty familiar SAD place where I hoped for death to relieve me of my pain. Then when I look back I'm like you know what, I'd rather take a stupid pill every-day than feel like that, it may take time but I'm worth it and eventually when you come out of the dark you realize life is really worth it too. Without depression and without the highs. (and hangovers I'm finding out! ha) Anyway, I'm sad for the things that you are but just know you are not alone and it takes more strength to take the meds and educate yourself about your disorder than it does to ignore it.
P.S. Great book I just read -----> "Bipolar II" by Ronald R. Fieve, MD.. it says on the front " Enhance your highs, boost your creativity, and escape the cycles of recurrent depression - the essential guide to recognize and treat the mood swings of this increasingly common disease".