I am sorry that people are being mean to you and that you have been hurt. From reading this post it looks like you and your boyfriend have a lot of things you are working through. It also sounds like you are very self aware and ultimately know what you should do. You are not alone. Thank you for sharing.

Want to talk? This group's a good one for listening. I love the supportive nature of people here. I know you do because of your posts.
It sounds to me like the same things keep happening ~ am I right? Your strength lies within you, only you, once you've posted. I hope you'll give it a good try to stop the hurt.
Your name says it all if you're willing to try. Please think about it? I believe you can do it ~ if you try. xo

Braveredhead has my situation with my wife and kids, all of whom I only get to see on weekends. My wife is an emotional bully, and I've got no more cope for that. She can figure out all the bills for there, since I'm usually feeling very unwelcome when I can go home. I'm tired of being told I'm an inconvenience when I'm home. I can't shake the time she and her friend Sat on the front porch making fun of me, after alienating me for two hours in a public park, while I cried until I had no more tears. The worst of them all is "I don't need you here or want you here. If we're going to have a relationship, it's going to be all you. I'm not going to try any more."
Well, neither the f_-7 am I. I'm done with that. I'm considering disappearing entirely, and finding a whole new life, anywhere else.