Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I'm not doing very well.
I've recently had treatment for my anorexia and now it feels like that has been taken away and my depression has hit me. The self harming thoughts have come back and this afternoon all I could think about was how nice it would be to just take a load of tablets, go to sleep and not wake up.
I saw my therapist today which helped at the time. He's got an interesting approach which must come from working with personality disorders for 14 years. When I told him how I'd been feeling, he very bluntly said "if you kill yourself, I'll be really peed off". Even when feeling this bad he made me smile. It's just the way he says things I think sometimes. Either that or it was a situation where I would either laugh or cry. Light hearted comments aside... we talked things through and I left feeling a bit better. However now I'm back at home and have the weekend looming over me I'm anxious about how I'll cope again.
It's funny that I only replied yesterday to a topic about attachments to therapists, and yet here I am wondering how I'm going to make it safely to Monday when I see him again. Although at the time he seems to be able lift the overwhelming feeling of the thoughts, it doesn't last so it leaves me just hanging on for the next appointment.
I just feel so hopeless about things at the moment and I don't know how to convince myself that things can change. Or how to cope with these thoughts!
x-Bliss-x
I've recently had treatment for my anorexia and now it feels like that has been taken away and my depression has hit me. The self harming thoughts have come back and this afternoon all I could think about was how nice it would be to just take a load of tablets, go to sleep and not wake up.
I saw my therapist today which helped at the time. He's got an interesting approach which must come from working with personality disorders for 14 years. When I told him how I'd been feeling, he very bluntly said "if you kill yourself, I'll be really peed off". Even when feeling this bad he made me smile. It's just the way he says things I think sometimes. Either that or it was a situation where I would either laugh or cry. Light hearted comments aside... we talked things through and I left feeling a bit better. However now I'm back at home and have the weekend looming over me I'm anxious about how I'll cope again.
It's funny that I only replied yesterday to a topic about attachments to therapists, and yet here I am wondering how I'm going to make it safely to Monday when I see him again. Although at the time he seems to be able lift the overwhelming feeling of the thoughts, it doesn't last so it leaves me just hanging on for the next appointment.
I just feel so hopeless about things at the moment and I don't know how to convince myself that things can change. Or how to cope with these thoughts!
x-Bliss-x
Not really. He doesn't give me practical things to try no. I don't think he's that type of therapist to be honest. I've had CBT before but I didn't find it very helpful.
x-Bliss-x
Umm... read my post "I'm back..." on the 4th page. It will explain what's going on with my meds better.
Thank you for everyone's support, I'm trying to busy myself on here at the moment.
x-Bliss-x
also...ds is awesome, but don't hesitate to call the crisis clinic or check yourself in for an evaluation via your pdoc or the ER to see if you should maybe have a little stay in the club med of your choice...
your life is precious and when you're not feeling this way you will remember that in all its fullness...which i say with words that are for me too as i am weathering a similar storm...
cheers to us on the other side of the clouds.
bpagg