Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I just feeling really depressed today. I broke down in tears yesterday and again today. Everything is just really getting to me. All I can think of is how I want to go back to the way things were. It feels like it's my fault I'm like this. That if I'd have kept quiet I'd still be living a normal life.
When I think back...I was so happy. I'd finished school with high grades, I went straight into the job I've always wanted to do, veterinary nursing. I'd been there a year and passed my first year exams. I loved it. I felt useful and I felt proud. I had friends there. We were all really close, went out together after work etc...and even if I'm able to go back a couple of mornings a week like I started doing, it won't be the same. They'll treat me differently even if they don't mean to. I actually had a social life and had just started going out with them more often (I'm quite a shy person).
Not only am I battling the Bipolar, BPD and OCD traits but now I've been diagnosed with Anorexia and fighting against this.
Nothing is EVER going to be the same and I just wish I could be the person I was before and it hurts so much.
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When I think back...I was so happy. I'd finished school with high grades, I went straight into the job I've always wanted to do, veterinary nursing. I'd been there a year and passed my first year exams. I loved it. I felt useful and I felt proud. I had friends there. We were all really close, went out together after work etc...and even if I'm able to go back a couple of mornings a week like I started doing, it won't be the same. They'll treat me differently even if they don't mean to. I actually had a social life and had just started going out with them more often (I'm quite a shy person).
Not only am I battling the Bipolar, BPD and OCD traits but now I've been diagnosed with Anorexia and fighting against this.
Nothing is EVER going to be the same and I just wish I could be the person I was before and it hurts so much.
x-Bliss-x
I am sorry too, that you are so down... (((hugs)))
Everything was going fine and then BANG I was hit with this horrible illness. The signs were there before but it's only now when you look back we could see them.
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and if people treat you differently, maybe it will be out of respect for you and your illnesses... maybe you will be closer to some people, like those at work