Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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xBlissx 09/10/2007

I've just had one of those awful moments where suddenly everything has just kicked me right in the face.
I live at home, I have no independence, I can't work, I had a job (vet nurse) and now it looks like I'm going to have to give it up and it's all I've ever wanted to do! I'm not stable, I am very, VERY far from stable, I'm a complete a wreck and I'm only bloody 19!!!

My life is just NOT worth living for anymore...why should I keep fighting this just to wake up to another day of THIS!

I can't handle this anymore! The reality of it all is just too much.

x-Bliss-x

deleted_user 09/10/2007

Dear young one,

Do your parents advocate for you?
you are too young with this to be without a support system in place. You must reach out and not be alone in this pain. It is your and your Doctors responsibility to get you on meds that level you out mostly. A lot is up to you. do you sleep well? go to bed early? eat well? Stay away form caffeine drinks? Do you act out sexually in unhealthy ways?
you have reached out here, which is a start. You have far more power to help yourself than you realize. Please do not go it alone...Good luck.

dancingd 09/10/2007

Stay in the game (of life).....it's worth it....even if only to watch a suns rise or sunset.
Be assured,the darkness lifts.
Stay on your meds(talk to your Dr..maybe a meds change is in order)Things do level out,and someday a light will appear,and you will understand how it all comes down to loving others and shareing your love w others.
Take care

Hapless 09/10/2007

Hey, don't give up. It is because you are only 19 that you have so much to look forward to. Life does get better but you have to have resources to help you. Do you have a family member, tdoc or pdoc to help you? also support groups are really good. Make some small goals and when you reach those make some more. Keep fighting. It really does get better.

xBlissx 09/10/2007

I've been fighting to get stable for nearly a year now with hardly any relief. I do EVERYTHING I can to make it easier. My Dr has even commented on how complient and easy I am to work with.
I know how much your lifestyle can effect this illness, I've read book after book about Bipolar so I could understand it and try to gain some control but I still fail.
Yes I go to bed early when I'm bad but most of the time I can't sleep. I've been put back on the Mirtazapine which helps now though so I'm taking that at 8 now to fall asleep at 9. I don't drink caffeine drinks because I'm careful with my diet. I'm not in any kind of relationship, nor do I go out partying all night.
My therapist has said all I can do is wait for the meds to do their work but I'm climbing the walls!

x-Bliss-x

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