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Don't know where to begin here but I am feeling very, very alone today though Will and my son are here.
I'm not liking it and it's upsetting me very much. I'm not great at explaining how I feel or even knowing why I am feeling a certain way....I just know what is.
Will sleeps alot and I know he has to because of his treatment.....I have no friends to go hang out with because over the years all my friends have moved away from here.
I'm scared for today....and what is to come as well. I feel like hurting myself but I won't because I just won't. But I feel like it. Hate this....sigh
I don't like how one day I can feel on top of the world and the next a total wreck. This is rapid cycling for me.....this is my life....and some days just totally suck no matter what I do. Right now I don't know what to do, I just want these awful feelings to go away........
I'm not liking it and it's upsetting me very much. I'm not great at explaining how I feel or even knowing why I am feeling a certain way....I just know what is.
Will sleeps alot and I know he has to because of his treatment.....I have no friends to go hang out with because over the years all my friends have moved away from here.
I'm scared for today....and what is to come as well. I feel like hurting myself but I won't because I just won't. But I feel like it. Hate this....sigh
I don't like how one day I can feel on top of the world and the next a total wreck. This is rapid cycling for me.....this is my life....and some days just totally suck no matter what I do. Right now I don't know what to do, I just want these awful feelings to go away........
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I've also been watching some mindless tv, for example the show Fashion Queens (2 gay hairdressers and a "fluffy" black funny woman) it was funny. It reminded me of the In Living Color skit, Mens on Films...
They were just talking hairdos and fashion, it was funny and was only half an hour so it wasn't too much. Laughing at something always seems to chase the blues away for me. Good luck to you!
Im here for you any time you want/need to chat, i hope you know that.
lovin you
hugs
dee
I had a good cry though I still feel all out of whack here.....played some music and cried some more.
About to go watch some mindless TV, sounds like a plan to me....shouldn't be hard since television is full of it!
Seems as though alot of people are having a hard time and the weather isn't helping much either.....Spring sure doesn't feel right around the corner here.
Don't think I need a med tweak just thinking it is what it is for me right now.....got very overwhelmed and sad....I just have to play the waiting game for it to pass.
I'm doing a little better than I was but still pretty bummed and weepy......tea sounds like a good thing right about now too.
I do know how it feels when I'm alone amongst love ones. I know they love me but they can't always be the catalyst to shift me into their zone.
Just the same, ~smiles~ good morning tats...(((BBH)))
I luckly found a hobby that has helped me lots. Knitting. Once you get through the frustrating learning phase, it is quite relaxing. I do it as I watch the boring TV. It also has a bonus of having a finished object you can use or sell of give away as a present. The sence of accomplishment was great and the accolaids people gave me for the stuff I made was/is a good self esteem booster.
During my darkest times, I would force myself to knit, and I would feel better eventually. Even if it was a row of easy garter stitch ever few minuts, it helped.
I've been trying to distract myself and cleaned the entire house....can't focus to do any of my crafts just yet.
I'm worried about the damn drive to Will's appt and to my DBT....I so wish it were all closer. I am ocd'ing about it bad. Took a klonopin and I am trying to keep it together but I am losing it again......man this is really shitty to say the least.
It's a real fear for me....an intense fear that I want to go away!!
I wouldn't try and focus on anything when you're feeling like this.. I think it just adds more stress..
I hope you can get some rest and mindless TV sounds like a good plan
Love for you sista..xoxo