This is what I wrote yesterday. Oh warning, it's not a poem.

"It's ironic really. I was the one in the family that everyone said would achieve great things and go places. Mind you, I have, but little do they know that there is a war waging in my head between good and evil where evil has the upper hand. The evil is doing it's best to convince me to leave the world of the living. So far I have been able to say no, but I am scared that one day evil will win."

Girl...........I could have written most of that!! Especially the good and evil part. I am here if you ever need to talk.

I think anything can be the topic of prose or poetry. I've written some pretty rough stuff and I don't share it just because some people take such things too seriously. Good writing Z and 'shroom. I think it really does us good to get those emotions out.

unstersatand chelly...understand

it's kinda funny that people who want to live die and people who want to die live,what's up with that?is my God playing some kind of joke?who knows

I can understand.

You should see the pages and pages of dark stuff I have written.

I am surprised that you have dark moments. You seem so content and start cheery posts like- Whatcha doing? and people like you.

Most of the time, I am upbeat and cheerful. Laid back. Nothing is perfect though least of all my life.

One day, several months ago, I sent an email to Oprah, Obama, Dr. Phil, and Dr. Oz.
They all responded differently. Oprah sent the sheriff to my house again. Obama had some suicide group leave a message on my phone, Dr. Phil had someone leave info for suicide on my email and I'm not sure Dr. Oz responded at all.

My friend from here that lives with/takes care of me said it is surprising they didn't go wild on my ass because I said some crazy shit in it. I'm actually too embarassed to share. I don't know why, because I don't usually care.

I walk in the shadows while people talk to one another.I quietly smile at a child as their Mom carries them away.I feel that no one cares as I bleed for their love.My compassion runs deep within my soul.I have so much love to give to the world.But it;s hard to express that while standing in the shadows.Wondering if anyone will notice that I'm a loving ,caring person. I like to write my feelings down too ...and sometimes they can be real dark