I Can
All that time spent thinking of death and dying
Somewhere deep inside my body sighing
Haven't I thought this all out before?
But I'm convincing myself I can't take anymore

Useless days entertained in my head
Contemplating the ways I could make this be the end
Useless I'll tell you because I know no one knows
If dying relieves us of any of our woes

Woe is me, how can I take anymore?
There is so much sadness, loneliness, and bore
Curled up in my bed in a tight little ball
So justified, if I stood I'd be 10 feet tall

I just can't, is the lie I tell myself
So I can stay right where I am and deny any kind of help
Till I'm finally convinced I can't live one more day
There has got to be a way to make it all go away

It's at this time that I caress my gun
But what of the darkness and never seeing the sun?
What if the voices continue even when dead?
What if what you take with you is your sweet insane head?

Panic has driven me to the phone
Hoping and praying somebody is home
For all I know, death will not relieve my pain
To kill myself is surely insane

To leave the living with no solution
My family's inheritance no evolution
But why must I keep carrying all this grief?
May be to help find a solution so you get relief

Perhaps this is how it's supposed to be
I can do it for you when I can't do it for me

Then I'm living but yet another day
A smile even crosses my face, I'm helping you stay sane
Courting death is such a stupid thing to do
Cause I fear it and I love me and I love you

There really is so much more of life to love
I'm worthy of living, I was given life from above
I have trees and wind and birds singing that are friends
And one day all lives naturally come to an end.