i am in truth sorry and all i can say is humanity is incredibly flawed and we are going through some astounding changes as a whole on this sphere called earth right now. i wish that it was not so difficult for us to reach out a hand to each other. i AM sorry for your pain and for all that hurt you are experiencing. i don't think you are complaining i see you are going though a time that seems impossible and you are out in the desert and i am there with you. and i don't want to push my philosophies or faith but i am relying on what i believe at this point.

It's not logical that you'd turn around what these people are doing and decide that it's you who should be dead. It ain't so. It sounds like a big mess and I'm sorry for that.
I hope you get a good resolution out of it. I would've run away from home before this!

Please listen to me, Kitty, I'm going to try to help you. I lost my mother too and it was the worst thing I have ever had to deal with. So, I know where some of your anger is coming from.

Think of this....The cops come and you are screaming and cursing. And if you are like me there was probably some arm flapping and hair flying going on too. Of course, you looked crazy to them.

Same thing with your brother and dad. I'm not judging you at all - once I cursed my brother out all the way across 74 acres of land. He was walking away, I was right in behind him, and my dog was going with him. I went bonkers because he wouldn't stop and let me get my dog. Not one of my shining moments. One of my arms flapping and hair flying moments.

It's not that people don't care. They just don't want your problems to intefere with their lives. YOU do have to handle things on your own. Just a fact of life. Now that your mom is gone, NOBODY is going to step in and make things right for you. You are doing this to yourself. Getting yourself upset - probably over trivial things.

Finally, I want you to think about this.... considering the loss of your mom, does any of the bullshit really matter? Doesn't it all pale in comparison to the loss? It does for me. Nothing can hurt me now because I have felt the worst kind of loss. So, to hell with the rest of it.

Sometimes I wish I could work up a good "fit" but I just don't have it in me anymore.

Last thing. Right now, check your blood pressure if you have a guage. If you don't, check your pulse. Have a look at what your anger is doing to you physically.

I'm here, if you ever want to talk about your mom. I really hope things get better for you, but it has to start with you.

Big hug, sweetie.

Well, finally! some one else had that happen! THREE times in my life, in the worst place - my screaming upset - the cops focused on me and said "we can take you in..." OMG! Happen a few months ago, at a rental property....

I'm a so sorry, your going through ALL of this - but having been in the position, I want to tell you its not fair, its wrong, and you deserve better! Be glad you here, I'm grateful your alive!!!! The police can suck, and are screaming - justified, but worked against us..... HOLD ON!!! We're here for you!

On the other side of all that drama and pain, is life - a better one, this moment, day SUCKS!!! Please stay safe! From everyone, including yourself (((((BIG HUG)))))

I am sorry to be the one to point this out, but it is unreasonable to expect others to fix your problems and make your brother & father behave. Yes, it is a bit much to have to put up with the stress of family and be Bi-Polar, too, but that is the hand you were dealt. Don't fold it; play it out to the end - you may be in for a surprise.

I am sorry to be the one to point this out, but it is unreasonable to expect others to fix your problems and make your brother & father behave. Yes, it is a bit much to have to put up with the stress of family and be Bi-Polar, too, but that is the hand you were dealt. Don't fold it; play it out to the end - you may be in for a surprise.

Most people don't care, but the people in my life who did, are gone. So the one who needs to care is me, and I will have to fight for what I want, regardless of the opinions of others.

Do what you need to do, to get where you want to go. Screw everyone else!!

We need to do in this life what we need to survive and move forward. If they don't like it, too damn bad!!

xox

I just have such contempt for these power hungry cops that automatically shut me down when they find out that I have been treated for psychological issues,like I am a non-citizen at that point,pure discrimination. I am involved in local politics and am working to change the flawed system from the inside instead of just complaining,I think if more of us got involved things might change. Take on one issue at a time as to not become overwhelmed and feel defeated. Get right back in the saddle and keep on riding ,,you will get where you need to be. GOOD LUCK

Hi. First, I am giving you a HUGE virtual hug. I was gone for three days but I am here now.

Yea. Cops these days--police--just don't seem to be able to handle things in a dipomatic manner.

On another forum, I learned that some people have to get saavy and know their personal rights, habeus corpus and know the laws pretty well before making drastic moves--be your own lawyer. I haven't done this, but then again, I'm in the Bible Belt south and haven't gotten much bad police interaction--so....................


I wonder if you could move out of your bad situation??

I've also noticed patterns with police and the young get targeted a lot. Elsewhere, there was a girl who was treated poorly and placed in the hospital for crying at a train station--WHAT?!

Yes-Get with a friend or someone you trust and make a plan to get away from this bad situation. Make plans for a future retainer of a lawyer or get legal assistance from Legal Services.

I cannot stand cops, but I know that you have to be calm. It is soooooooooo difficult.

I was on my way to give blood SAturday and hubby had not paid or gotten the tag or whatever, and we got stopped. I always get scared and my breathing gets hard when a cop stops. The cop had us pulled over for 20 minutes. But, I had to remain calm. I hated it, but cops are cops and they have power. I guess we give them less power when we can be calm.

Learn the laws
plan to get out
retain legal counsel
be independent
know your rights.