I am writeing to expand upon my last post. I asked if anyone would allow a 3rd person into their bedroom. Well I am very jelous too and I hate the idea of someone with my husband.Im very confused too. You see In the past I was very much a whore. with my ex we would have other people over all the time we even had parties where sex was the only reason to gather together. Ive been with over 200 men but only 10 women.The whole time I was with my ex though I had a very hard time with my bipolar. I wasnt very good with taking my meds and I drank too.Now Im very good with my meds andI dont drink or do drugs.And Im with a man who honestly cares about my mental health and keeps me very grounded.I know he loves me too he treats me very good. But my problem is this I know he misses having sex with other guys. He says he would never cheat and says he dont have a desire to. but things he does makes me wonder. There is a guy who has been asking alot if he can come over for the evening.my husband said we should let him come so he will quit asking. When I was with my ex I was able to seperate my love for him and having sex with other men. I did love him too. I wonder if my husband feels that way with me like he could seperate sex and love. could it be easy to have sex with others and still love me? Im so confused Im in such a differant place in my life now Im healthier with my bipolar and I am truely deeply in love. He is totally enough for me but am I enough for him? I dont want him to start going elsewhere and lieing. and I wonder if I allow other men over now and then it will fill the need he has for strange.
I know this post has been all over the place but Im just wanting to know others thought on my situation.