Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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The oral part was to draw folks in because I want yall to read what I have to say to yall and I know yall are always interested in sex. I am using my oral skills to love you from my heart. As simple as that!!
Warning: Wear your waders. The shit is gonna get deep!! Before this is over yall may be naming me head of the people that talk too much!!!
My heart is that still small voice that comes from my conscience. My heart is my consciousness. My being. The keeper of my emotions. My lover when I need one. My spirit. My Soul. My spunk. ;) My Christ consciousness. Whatever you wanna call it.
Anyways, my thoughts, my actions, feelings, etc., if I allow them to be shown, are such that you would see into my heart, but for all I am forthcoming with I hold ,oh so much more inside that heart.
I have really poor self image sometimes as depression sets in and I think of all that is wrong with me. What a defect I am. I deflect my feelings alot with the use of humor. That's why I am Zany!!
It may be a true statement from my heart, but it will be followed by lol and then sometimes it really is an lol. I have to laugh at myself when that happens. That's why I exclaim so much!! I am laughing at myself out loud lol.
I think I hide my feelings sometimes because I want to be accepted as we all do by my peers. Beepers are my peers. We are like anchors to each other. I feel tethered to you people, but not obsessive. Not anymore lol. Thank God.
I am not that defect right now. Pot helps me to realize that and to be able to act on my emotions rather than my intellect and still be in control of myself at all times. To voice my heart appropriately according to each situation, person, but to be in perfect control of myself. That is my goal. Is to voice the love the comes from my heart for the people in my life. Here's to us!!!!!!! Dammit man!!! ;)
Love & Big Country Hugs,
Me.
***PS***--I am in no way depressed. Just felt really forthcoming and at peace with myself tonight and wanted to share some of my thoughts with my loved ones here. Peace.
Warning: Wear your waders. The shit is gonna get deep!! Before this is over yall may be naming me head of the people that talk too much!!!
My heart is that still small voice that comes from my conscience. My heart is my consciousness. My being. The keeper of my emotions. My lover when I need one. My spirit. My Soul. My spunk. ;) My Christ consciousness. Whatever you wanna call it.
Anyways, my thoughts, my actions, feelings, etc., if I allow them to be shown, are such that you would see into my heart, but for all I am forthcoming with I hold ,oh so much more inside that heart.
I have really poor self image sometimes as depression sets in and I think of all that is wrong with me. What a defect I am. I deflect my feelings alot with the use of humor. That's why I am Zany!!
It may be a true statement from my heart, but it will be followed by lol and then sometimes it really is an lol. I have to laugh at myself when that happens. That's why I exclaim so much!! I am laughing at myself out loud lol.
I think I hide my feelings sometimes because I want to be accepted as we all do by my peers. Beepers are my peers. We are like anchors to each other. I feel tethered to you people, but not obsessive. Not anymore lol. Thank God.
I am not that defect right now. Pot helps me to realize that and to be able to act on my emotions rather than my intellect and still be in control of myself at all times. To voice my heart appropriately according to each situation, person, but to be in perfect control of myself. That is my goal. Is to voice the love the comes from my heart for the people in my life. Here's to us!!!!!!! Dammit man!!! ;)
Love & Big Country Hugs,
Me.
***PS***--I am in no way depressed. Just felt really forthcoming and at peace with myself tonight and wanted to share some of my thoughts with my loved ones here. Peace.
Boo--You are one of a kind baby!! Never change. Only the way you feel about yourself sometimes. I love you baby just the way you are. Be proud of who you are and always keep your chin up knowing that brighter days are just around the corner. Big Country Hugs with loads of love and tons of hugs!!
I know me personally have told you what a sweetheart you are almost everyday for the last few. But you DO need to learn to love yoursefl first. Otherwise, you won't believe what I or other people tell you.
Try looking in the mirror daily and talk to the mirror....tell the image that you love her unconditionally. You love her for exactly who she is today. It will feel strange at first, but keep it up. You will see a difference.
Love ya, Bobbi
V--I do that a LOT. That's part of the reason there are so many of the lol's in my posts. lol. See there!! I am lucky in a lot of ways. But, you know what? We protect our hearts so well that we can't extend our love and cannot receive the love of others--truly receive it. I am sorry if you have had a hard life. I try to look on the side of those that have loved me no matter what the circumstance--toward the positive. Fuck all the people who haven't taken the time to really love me. I am better off without them. You are lovable, V. Believe that!! Hugs.
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and perhaps the eyes of others who know you here on DS. You are genuine; you speak from your heart and your words~~whether full of wisdom or rocking with humor too twisted for color TV are always sincere and compassionate.
You are a blessing to me.
Many hugs and laughs!
Tracey