Big hug sweetie..... This sounds like depression to me.... You may need a med tweak

My pdoc really believes in the science behind 'happy lamps'.... I bought one this year but haven't used it much yet but I do feel good in the sun so I get the reasoning behind it

If this has been ongoing for a while I'd see your doc.......xo

I’ve experienced this in my darkest depression. It does go away. Therapy, meds, surrounding yourself with your support system. It all helps

I've felt that all my life. That is my life, I've come to terms with that. I don't know how everybody gets into things like picnics, bbq's vacations etc... I really don't feel excitement. I feel the same way no matter what. I can feel fear, anxiety, doom. My meds take away crying and sadness which is a blessing. I understand you and IT'S OK TO FEEL THAT WAY. (((HUGS))) Mine never has gone away.

I hope you'll reach out to your Doc. I hope you can also find some coping methods that will help you refocus your attention to things that lift your mood or perhaps give you insight that will then helps in that area. I know it's hard, sending good vibes and support in your journey!

Those sound like classic Depression feelings, its hard to transfer into good, happy or uplifting and positive feelings. Might be a conversation that need to be had with your Pdoc about where your meds are at. It might also need to be a look at the places you put yourself in and how your body and emotions react to those places.

I've found that when I have a really bad or off day I can go to the kitten room at the local animal shelter and play with the kittens and let them climb and fall all over me and its almost impossible to stay in a down mood. That gets me on my way to a better mood by the time I'm on my way home.

Take care,

If we are honest, we all have times of feeling as you've described. What isn't normal is to have ongoing feelings of sadness and guilt and anxiety with only minimal times of happiness in between. Are you seeing a counselor of any type? Agree with the above comments about seeing your doc for possible med changes, and about finding your 'happy place'. What are the things that make you smile and feel content? Might be an animal, like the kittens, might be a walk near the water. For me, it's books in a sunny window or outside on the porch. I could read in the sun for hours and be very happy. I don't have hours, but I do allow myself time in the morning and again in the afternoon for awhile after work. It helps me alot. Hugs to you