Hey forgive yourself.

I'm not much of a cutter but have done it a couple of times, to convert the unbearable emotional pain into physical pain that's bearable.

Make sure the wound has First Aid.

Is there something else you can do when you get the urge to cut, like rip something up or break something?

hey don't be so hard on yourself, cutting is such a hard habit to break it's not going to happen at once, you will have slip ups along the way but as long as you get straight back on the wagon (so to speak) it's not the end of the world. In fact in can be helpful as your therapists will be able to work out with you what led up to it so next time you will know where to intervene to prevent it happening again.

I know how hard this habit is to break, it's like an addiction and recovery is a looooong process, but stay strong and take each day as it comes. One slip up is not you fucking it up, it is just a minor set back which can help identify your triggers.

Stop right there . . . I have read your profile page and gonna guess here from what I saw you are a true SI instead of one that cuts due to Bi Polar (and yes there are some differences) doesn't actually matter tho hun which category of cutter you are - cutting is an addiction and relapses happen dust your butt off wallow in the dirt for a few if you have to and then pick yourself up and try again . You can do it but it is something you will have to live with the rest of your life and yeah you might very well relapse again - I am 47 years old and have been a cutter since age 9 I have spent all the time I could learning about it as back when I was a kid there were huge misconceptions about SI and sadly some still exist today. Learn about it ask ?s and some how find a way to make peace with it because in all truth it is what keeps you alive ironic as that is.

Love & Peace

And yes sadly we all relapse sometime during our lives with SI and anyone that tells you different is either ignorant or a liar

Thank u guys....i keep relapsing and i wanna stop so bad....i went from janurary to july, then july to sept, sept til now...it looks like im not tryingg enoughh

Hey you got some "clean" time in there and you will again no worries
Some days I have to mind fuck myself in reverse and go about telling the part of me that wants to cut that nope for today its not gonna happen but maybe tomorrow and if the urge is still there tomorrow the reverse mind fuck continues until its no longer there and before I know it I got clean time again but no it doesn't always work and then its time to sit and wallow for a moment in the mud and get back up and try it again . . . . You will do it I have faith

Now that is in the past, the only thing you can do is move forward. The longer you sit and dwell on what you did the longer you are going to keep yourself in this stooper. SI cut, work on why you cut so your not back in this place again; Good luck,,

Itzjustme - I can relate. I'm with moltengold. Make sure that your wound is taken care of.

I think that we all have relapses of sorts with harmful behaviors. I know that I myself have issues with self injury. Each time I just try starting over. It's all I can do.

One thing that I do when I have the urge to cut is hold frozen peas in my hands until they get numb. It helps!

like the others said, don't be so hard on yourself. you release pain in the only way you know how. It sounds like you are learning new techniques in dealing and coping, you just aren't there yet. I'm so sorry you're in such pain. I hope it goes away soon.
Is there another outlet you could find like running or walking?
In any case, please be kind to yourself in all senses of the word. Be kind to your head as well as your body. peace to you xxxxx

thank u guys...faith and jamie said they will never be mad at me....how do i take care of a cut...i never took care of it..its pretty open ..i can see white..is that bad..i have becitracin...i have a lot of coping skills and i used all of them and just today none of them helped block this strong urge...its too coldd to walk...my bones hurt so bad in the cold and it has been raining soo muchh....wie: i usually do that too...i tell myself not now maybe tomorrow and i keep doing that..i didnt that this time too but them i was like idgaf. ill just keep going from here...keep having good days from here

abuse is all i know....

clean the cut out with plain soap and warm water (or peroxide if you can handle it) put some neosporin or the likes on it - let it breath at night and light covering during the day til it scabs over

Looking for the link for ya :)

Took me a long time to break the habit and before I did I took it one step further with cigarette burns. You have to forgive yourself and remember like any other bad habit, it takes time and determination to break it.

yeah I started out with burning my self then switched to cutting. I wont give you any ideas but I would burn myself pretty severely. I successfully hid this from my family.

I can't really give good advice though because I never tried to break the habit I just kind of stopped. I couldn't get away with it in rehab and since that time I never returned to the habit.

sometimes the urge must become so strong that you do slip, do you rapid cycle you say you cut every 3-4 months so l wonder if you cycle and feel low then? do you keep a mood diary?

l agree with the others forgive yourself we all slip up you're trying your best while unwell at least you know you shouldn't cut and keep trying your best.